Charisma Carpenter
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Where is Ronan?
Somehow, I am in my cozy bed at my house. I cannot get out of my bed. It feels like quicksand, and even when I try to get up, it pulls me back down. My house and heart feel empty. I hear people, but the biggest voice of all is missing. “Where is Ronan?” That…
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Music to my ears
I’m feeling peaceful tonight. Today, was a very good day in terms of victories for Ronan. It started off with his little words this morning, “Mom, I have to poop.” Praise the freaking lord. It’s been 5 days of him not pooping and we have been giving him Miralax around the clock. I full on…
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The next person that tells me Ronan wants to go home, to heaven, can piss off
Holy Fuck. How did I get here? I’m at The Ryan House; the most beautiful place we have been so far on this journey because my son is going to die? And everybody knows this except me? Am I in that movie, “The Truman Show,” where everything is just pretend and I’m some experiment being…
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Princess Leia and Captain Rex take on the world… or at least the halls of Sloan-Kettering
Last night was a little better than the night before. We have had a really, really, extra sweet nurse, Alex, the past 2 nights. She is adorable, looks like she is about 12, and really gets along well with Ronan. She is super patient with him, very calm, and is very doating. He meshes well…
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Empire State of Mind
I just spent the last 48 hours with Quinn and it was blissful. We woke up yesterday and I asked him what he wanted to do, as we had the whole day to spend together. He chose to go to The Empire State Building so we got ready for our adventure of the day.…
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This is what I wish
I wish that I could sleep the entire night without waking up 50 times. I wish that my baby wouldn’t wake up as early in the morning because is little arm is hurting so badly. I wish this was me and not him. I wish that there was a known cure for this disease.…
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Because I’m still in love with you
Clarity. It’s what I’ve found tonight. It came in many different forms. A long talk with Mr. Sparkly eyes, an email from my Mrs. Darling(P.S., SB… that’s your new name) , an honest talk with my husband, and the music that blares on my headphones from a mixed C.D. that my New York Miss Macy…
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Living is easy with your eyes closed
I have no idea what day it is even…. Wednesday I think? The days and nights are so blurry here and it is so easy to lose track of the time, days, and nights as they all seem to blend together. I do know that today is my dear birthday bunny, Jen’s birthday. Happy Birthday…
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Serenity now
Deep breaths and an amazing friends have gotten me through this past 24 hours. We were admitted into the ER last night around 9:00 due to Ronan’s low grade fever. I didn’t have to wait in the waiting room of the ER; THANK GOD. It was beyond packed even at 9:00 at night. The doctor…
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Update One…. kind of a generic one
One of the nurses that comes out into the waiting room to give everyone updates, came to see us. She said Ronan went to sleep beautifully, they have started, and he is going great. I think she saw what a wreck I was so she put us back in a private room to wait. I…
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