Self control vs Self destruction. And Happy Fucking New Year.
Ronan. Happy Fucking New Year. No. There will never be anything “Happy,” about it again. This is how I know I will never be normal again. This is how I know, I will continue to live in Zombieland. Because everything stings so much that I can’t be among the living. Everyone is so busy being…angels, anger, arizona, AZ, best friends, Cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, cooking, Fake Plastic Trees, Friday, FUCK, Fuck you 2011, mandy bee, maya thompson, Mizpah, Neuroblastoma, New Year, Oregon, Phoenix, phoenix children’s hospital, Portland, Rockstar Ronan, Ronan, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, woody thompson, Zombieland
Hell is empty and all the Devils are here
Ronan. Cancer is stupid. And people are stupid. I try to ignore the stupid people of the world the best I can but sometimes they get under my skin. I try not to let them but as it turns out, I’m still human. For as dead as I feel I guess I’m really not because…All good things are wild and free, angels, anger, arizona, assholes, AZ, best friends, Chemotherapy, Christmas, Conditions and Diseases, death, faith, Family, honesty, maya thompson, Neuroblastoma, new york city, phoenix children’s hospital, Portland, Rhabdomyosarcoma, Rhabdomyosarcome, Rockstar Ronan, Ronan, strength, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, true love, truth, twins, Zolpidem, Zombieland
I’m going to build a little igloo and live in it for the rest of my life.
Ronan. I didn’t make it to boot camp this morning. I didn’t sleep through my alarm or anything. I was already awake. I fell asleep last night around midnight, only to toss and turn. 3:00 a.m. and I was up and there was no putting me back to sleep. It was always the witching hour…
New York Miss Macy and the Candy Store Girl
Ronan. Hi my baby. Nighttime is here. The stars are out. Everyone is asleep. Slumber party in my bed. I hate the time between now, and when I actually fall asleep. It’s too quiet, too calm, too still, and too lonely without you. It’s the time when my heart feels the heaviest and my mind…10k, albert camus, Burger Lounge, candy store police, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Coronado California, Danielle, Dolphins, friendship, fuckwad, Health, honesty, i hope you are safe, I love you to the moon and back, iPhone app, just you and me, lifeline to my soul, lonlieness, Maya, Maya civilization, Music, my “D.”, Neuroblastoma, new york city, New York Miss Macy, nighttme, Nike iphone app, Phoenix, phoenix children’s hospital, rebellion, ro, Rockstar Ronan, running, sadness, San Diego, sand and water fight, Scars, shopping, Star Wars, strength, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, true love, Zombieland
Losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
Ronan. I had a bad day. A day where I didn’t get out of bed until 1 or so this afternoon. I am in a funk and I can’t seem to shake it. I cannot shake being in this condo, which as I told you before, is exactly like the one we stayed in when…Ambien, angels, arizona, Captain Rex, childhood cancer, Conditions and Diseases, dreams, exercise, Family, Feisty, Growing up in Heaven, Health, heaven, Inner Peace, James Van Praagh, Kung Foo Panda, Kung Foo Pando 2, Liam Gallagher, mama, Master Yoda, maya thompson, Medium, Mother, movies, Music, Neuroblastoma, Opposing Views, phoenix children’s hospital, Religion & Spirituality, Religion and Spirituality, running, shetland pony, Spiritualism, stages of grief, tears, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, Today (NBC program), twins, Washington, woody thompson, Zombieland
Just you and me
Ronan. Just another day without you. I wish I could tell you that I am o.k. But, I’m not. I’m just sad. I’m swimming in a sea of sadness and am barely staying afloat. This morning, I took your brothers to surf camp. I sat and watched them for the 3 hours and pushed them…& hudson, Ambien, angels, anger, anxiety, arizona, axel, AZ, BBQ, best friends, Bill Murray, broken hearts, Cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, Coronado Bridge, Coronado Surf Camp, Disorders, Dolphins, dreams, Emma Stone, Energy, facebook, Family Therapy, Fore, Health, insomnia, iPad, love, maya thompson, Mental Health, Mr. Sparkly Eyes, Neuroblastoma, Ocean, Papa, Parenting, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Posttraumatic stress disorder, Psychological trauma, Ro baby, Rockstar Ronan, running, sarah matheson, sloan kettering, Starbucks, Surfing, tears, the ocean, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, therapy, Thought, twins, Twitter, United States, Zolpidem, Zombieland
Deep breaths and an amazing friends have gotten me through this past 24 hours. We were admitted into the ER last night around 9:00 due to Ronan’s low grade fever. I didn’t have to wait in the waiting room of the ER; THANK GOD. It was beyond packed even at 9:00 at night. The doctor…“A”, angels, anger, arcadia, arizona, AZ, baby seal, best friends, Camelback Women’s Health, Cancer, Charisma Carpenter, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, Death Star, doctors, Dr. Eshun, Dr. La Quaglia, Dr. Maze, Dr. Schwartz, Dr. Wood, emergency room, happiness, Health, kids, Los Angeles, love, maya thompson, Mexico, mom’s, Music, Neuroblastoma, new york city, nurses, oncology, Oreo, Parenting, peace, Phoenix, Rockstar Ronan, ronan baby, RSV, sadness, sloan kettering, snow patrol, sociopaths, Star Wars, Starbucks, the devil wears prada, true love, United States, Zombieland
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