Ronan
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Grief! It’s a tricky mo’ fo!
Ronan. Grief is a tricky thing. It’s one of the thousands of things in life that I will never understand because it is that out of my control. I never know when it is going to be an o.k. day., a really bad day, a paralyzing day, a “crazy,” day. I never know who I…
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9 months. I’m so sorry.
Ro baby. I started this last night. I am so tired that I don’t know that I’ll be able to say much more. Seems like not many words are needed tonight. I can’t believe it’s been 9 months. It feels like 9 years. I’m so sorry. I miss you so much. …
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I miss him
Ronan. What a day. How I miss the simple days of chasing you around. Laughing as you would pick all the flowers around our neighborhood from other people’s yards, thinking you were so naughty for doing so. I let you think you were being naughty, just to make you giggle and to let you feel…
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Romama’s Busy Day
Ronan. I don’t have time to dig my hole this week, because due to a last minute invite…. I am so busy. And so tired. But in a very good way. I got an email from a lovie from T-Gen a few days ago. She wanted to tell me that Dr. Giselle Sholler was coming…
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You is kind. You is smart. You is important.
Ro baby. I played musical beds last night as I fought off the Ambien sleep. I won. I fell asleep for about 10 minutes in our bed and then woke up, in a panic because I cannot remember the last time I have seen the stuffed animal, Gary, that I bought for you over Christmas.…
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Vegas on crack
; Ronan. Is the picture above, sad? Because I wept just seeing it. It tells the story of everything that is wrong in this life, because you are gone. It tells the story of everything that should be, but is not. At least to me it does. Is everything sad? Because I can’t seem to…
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A Bed of Fire
Ronan. I swear time stood still today. I knew that reality was going to come crashing down hard after the New York fuckeverythingimabadass high came to a halt. Yeah it did and it hurts. I knew I was in for it when I wrestled with my sleep all last night. I fought the devil aka,…
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Sometimes it takes the hardest fall, to know where you really stand
Ro baby. I’m back home. In your home where you should be but are not. It was strange to leave NYC without you only to wind up back at our house, without you. Your brothers were sound asleep as it was late when I got in. I went into their room and gave them a…
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Back to a reality I don’t want
Ronan. I am not content to go back to my old life, before you disappeared. The safe little life of an Arizona housewife. Thinking of going back to my life, before all of this, makes my skin crawl. Nothing will be the same again without you. That means everything has to change. I’m not sure…
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