sarah matheson
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4 Months feels like 4 Years. Thanks, Cancer. You’re AWESOME.
Ro. I can write tonight. I need to write tonight. It’s been a couple of days I think. I don’t know that I’ll be able to sleep tonight. It’s creeping up. The 9th of every month date. 3:30 a.m. will be here soon. I’ve been dreading it all week. Consumed by it. 4 months is…
4 Months, angels, arizona, Cancer, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Dr. Beth, Dr. Joanne, Dr. Rachel, Family, FUCK, Garage Boutique for Kids, Hats, hope, iPod, Lance Armstrong, Lovie, maya thompson, MISS Foundation, Mr. Sparkly Eyes, Neuroblastoma, phoenix children’s hospital, Rockstar Ronan, sarah matheson, Spirit Hoods, Star Wars, Starbucks, The Bravery, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, The Ryan House, Tom Petty, true love, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star -
Excuse the rambling novel tonight… it’s just the screaming voices in my head
Ronan. Today was real. I think. I honestly don’t know what is real and what is fake anymore, but here is how my “real day,” played out. Woke up after another restless night of sleep. Went through all the motions of the morning, eg: getting out of bed, showered, dressed, boys up, showered, breakfast made,…
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A Sea of Sadness
Ronan. Hi baby. I’m waiting to board my flight back to San Diego. It’s late. I had to leave you tonight and somehow I made it to the gate of the plane. I had an o.k. day. I kept busy and luckily I had enough things around Phoenix to do to keep me…
arcadia, arizona, best friends, Burger Lounge, Cars 2, chelsea’s kitchen, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, CHOP, Coronado California, donuts, Dr. Mosse, Godmother, honesty, I fucking hate you mother fucking cancer, In hiding, life, Marie Callendar’s Fettucini Alfredo, maya thompson, mother fucking fucked up, Neuroblastoma, new york city, pain, Phoenix, phoenix children’s hospital, raw, running, San Diego, San Diego Airport, sarah matheson, Stacy Frakes, Star Wars, tears, The Coronado Shores, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, To the moon and back, tricia tinney, true love, woody thompson -
Just you and me
Ronan. Just another day without you. I wish I could tell you that I am o.k. But, I’m not. I’m just sad. I’m swimming in a sea of sadness and am barely staying afloat. This morning, I took your brothers to surf camp. I sat and watched them for the 3 hours and pushed them…
& hudson, Ambien, angels, anger, anxiety, arizona, axel, AZ, BBQ, best friends, Bill Murray, broken hearts, Cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, Coronado Bridge, Coronado Surf Camp, Disorders, Dolphins, dreams, Emma Stone, Energy, facebook, Family Therapy, Fore, Health, insomnia, iPad, love, maya thompson, Mental Health, Mr. Sparkly Eyes, Neuroblastoma, Ocean, Papa, Parenting, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Posttraumatic stress disorder, Psychological trauma, Ro baby, Rockstar Ronan, running, sarah matheson, sloan kettering, Starbucks, Surfing, tears, the ocean, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, therapy, Thought, twins, Twitter, United States, Zolpidem, Zombieland -
I’ll follow you into the dark
Ronan. Hi baby. I miss you so much. This morning I woke up late and so did your brothers. I didn’t fall asleep until about 3 a.m., so we slept in until around 9. I don’t know what exactly happened this morning. Actually, I do. A couple of things. Your daddy called. He was upset.…
angels, anger, arizona, AZ, beaches, best friends, bullshit, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Conditions and Diseases, Coronado California, death, Doriet and Esther, Dr. Sholler, Fashion Valley, fuck you cancer, heaven, hell, honesty, i love you, I love you to the moon and back, life, little seal, lost, love, mommy blogging, Neuroblastoma, new york city, old souls, pain, Phoenix, Purgatory, Rockstar Ronan, Ronan, Ronan Sean Thompson, running, San Diego Padres, sarah matheson, summer, tears, The Coronado Shores, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, The Ryan House, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, twins, woody thompson -
Rain in May
Ronan. I have no idea how I survived today. Actually, I do. It is because you are amazing in everything you do. You were amazing during your time here with us and you are amazing even though you are gone. Gone. It’s a word that I’ll never get used to. I know that was you…
angels, anger, arizona, AZ, best friends, blue eyes, bullshit, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, Cure, doctors, dreams, Energy, faith, Family, Fry’s supermarket, FUCK, Fuck God, god, happiness, Health, honesty, i love you, Lack of awareness, Liam, Liam Gallagher, life, love, maya thompson, Medicine, Miss you, Neuroblastoma, new york city, Philanthropy, phoenix children’s hospital, rain, Rain in May, Ro baby, Rockstar Ronan, ronan thompson, sarah matheson, Science, Sheriff Woody, sloan kettering, Star Wars, the good doctor, The most beautiful boy in the world, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, true love, twins, Woody, woody thompson -
FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKING CANCER
Text to Mr. Sparkly Eyes tonight: “I don’t know much about life; although I pretend like I do. I know almost nothing about death…. but I am about to learn about it in a very hard way. I don’t think R is going to be around much longer.” I often find myself thinking my truest…
angels, anger, arizona, AZ, bullshit, Cancer, Chemotherapy, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, doctors, dreams, Energy, faith, Family, friends, friendship, FUCK, god, happiness, honesty, life, love, maya thompson, Mother’s Day, Neuroblastoma, Rockstar Ronan, sadness, San Diego, sarah matheson, tears, true love, woody thompson
ROCKSTAR RONAN 
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