It’s almost Halloween and I would still let you be anything if you were still here
Ronan. Last week, I got to see the magic that Alexander has put together with the SpiritHoods video. He’s been working like mad on it, and keeping me so very in the loop. When the link finally came through the short version, the one that will air on their website, I took a deep breath…angels, anger, arizona, AZ, best friends, bullshit, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, doctors, dreams, Energy, F U Cancer, faith, Family, friends, friendship, Halloween, happiness, Health, honesty, maya thompson, Neuroblastoma, new york city, Phoenix, Ronan, SpiritHoods, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, twins
G’nite Halloween. Thank you for being over.
Ronan. This is my second Halloween without you. I survived. I woke up today, feeling alright. I went to my office and got a lot of things done. Most everybody came dressed up in a costume. They had me chuckling most of the morning with their creativity and fun. It felt really good to be…angels, anger, arizona, AZ, best friends, bullshit, Cancer, Captain Rex, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, costumes, doctors, Energy, F U Cancer, Family, friendship, Halloween, happiness, Health, honesty, I would have let you be anything, I’m sorry, KISS, love, maya thompson, Neuroblastoma, Phoenix, Poppy is still a girl, Ro baby, Rockstar Ronan, Ronan, Star Wars, strength, Taylor Swift, Taylor Swift and Ronan, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, twins
Oh, Hey Cancer! Fuck you! Seems like an appropriate title tonight.
Ronan. Your daddy left for Vegas. This means I get to hold down the fort while he is away. Normally this wouldn’t be a problem in the pre Ronan is not dead days. Now, doing things like keeping your brothers entertained on their fall break, solo, is hard fucking work. Don’t get me wrong, they…All good things are wild and free, angels, anger, arizona, AZ, bullshit, Cancer, Cancer is a fuckwad, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, doctors, dreams, Energy, F U Cancer, faith, Family, friends, friendship, fun, gaming, Grief, Halloween, happiness, Health, Holidays, Home, honesty, Hummingbirds, little seal, love, maya thompson, motherhood, Music, Neuroblastoma, pain, phoenix children’s hospital, Rockstar Ronan, Ronan, Star Wars, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, true love, videogames, woody thompson
The Silver Lining in the Clouds. I Wonder What it’s All About.
Ro baby. I haven’t been avoiding you. But I’ll admit it. For the first time ever, since starting this blog…..I’m scared. Scared because of the weakness that I gave into. Scared because I’m NOT as strong as everyone is always telling me I am. Scared because of the many days that I don’t think I…Arizona Foothills, AZ Republic, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, death, Dr. Jo, Dr. Joanne Cacciatore, fuck you cancer, Halloween, Heather Novak, Laundry Party, Michael Dee, Neuroblastoma, Rockstar Ronan, Ronan, Sarah Love, Sedona Arizona, Thanksgiving, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, Weekend of Death, woody thompson
Is it possible to Die choking on your own Tears?
Ronan. Days are filled with emptiness. They are not getting easier. Nights are worse. Halloween is approaching. How am I supposed to celebrate our favorite holiday, without you? If you were here, we would be going to your school tomorrow to celebrate. I would be tucking you into bed right now, but you would have…Neuroblastoma, Phoenix, childhood cancer, honesty, Conditions and Diseases, raw, Star Wars, maya thompson, ronan thompson, Halloween, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, Ronan, Master Yoda, Captain Rex, bereaved mom, I miss you, Dr. Joanne Cacciatore, Grief Loss and Bereavement, Sedona Arizona, fucking fuckwad cancer, Dr. JoRo, Love our love
I’d totally let you be Hanky the Christmas Poo for Halloween. Actually, I’d let you be Hanky everyday if that is what you wanted, if you were still here.
Ronan. Holy Fucking Fall Break. Day One, down. I remember, when you were still alive, how I thought it was crazy that schools had a Fall Break. Didn’t your brothers, just start back to school? What is this Fall Break madness? I remember feeling the pressure of wondering how I would keep all 3 of…Rockstar Ronan, Phoenix, childhood cancer, honesty, arizona, Star Wars, Halloween, fuck you cancer, running, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, Ro baby, Cancer sucks, South Park, I hate neuroblastoma, Costco, I miss you, i hope you are safe, Dr. Joanne Cacciatore, MISS Foundation, Inferno Fuckwad Bob, Spawn of the Devil Mom, Eric Cartman, Halloween Costume, Hanky the Christmas Poo, Sedona
I forgot to pay the Cox Bill and I burnt the Fucking pre-made Cookies
Ronan. 3 days since I’ve written? How is that possible? I couldn’t possibly tell you what I’ve done. I only have words that fill my head. Conversations I remember. Thoughts that flow in and out of my mind. Visions. Of you. All bad. All sad. Nothing good. Your smile does not fill my heart. Only…
Ronan. Your birthday. Daddy’s birthday. Liam and Quinn’s Birthday. Next up…. Father’s Day. Tomorrow. It’s hard enough having you gone, but having these “celebrations,” without you is unbearable. Tomorrow, I will somehow manage to get myself out of bed, somehow manage to go on about the day, somehow I will let your daddy know…arizona, AZ, beaches, birthdays, Boogie Boarding, bullshit, California, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Coronado, Coronado Shores, Debbie Downer, Fucking Father’s Day, fucking firsts, Halloween, hotel del, I hate cancer, little seal, maya thompson, Neuroblastoma, open wound, Phoenix, phoenix children’s hospital, Rockstar Ronan, Ronan Sean Thompson, sadness, San Diego, seaweed, sunshine, Surfing, swimming pools, The Lunds, woody thompson
Hope you all had a great Halloween! We had a wonderful one… Ro was able to trick or treat and everything! We started off at our friends, The Tarbell’s house for some great company and delicious homemade pizzas by Mark himself. After that, we went over to our friends, The Willits for some trick-or-treating. Gay drove…
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