nightmares
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Late night rants and I can’t put Poppy down.
Ronan. Fucking, fuck, fuck, fuck. I’m venting on here tonight and I don’t even care. I have been spending all of my nights, writing about this nightmare for this book and going back to re read my blog, which I’ve NEVER done, to reference some things. This is beyond torture. I knew this was going…
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Snow Falling in Flagstaff
Ronan. Guilt is what I feel at this time, in this moment. For living this life, without you here. For the smiles that I’ve smiled, for the laugher I’ve done, for the love I’ve given to your brothers. Guilt for going on when you know, all I want to do is be with you. I…
Ambien, Arizona State University, AZ, bereaved parents, bullshit, Cancer, Dr. Jo, Dr. Joanne Cacciatore, dreams, Flagstaff, guilt, honesty, insomnia, Liam Gallagher, love, maya thompson, Neuroblastoma, new york city, nightmares, Phoenix, Quinn, reality, Rockstar Ronan, Ronan, snow falling in flagstaff, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, true love, twins, Valerian Root, Wine tasting descriptors, woody thompson, Zolpidem -
Twinkle Twinkle little star
I had the worst dream last night. It was all about scan day. We woke up and got ready to go. Fernanda was downstairs waiting for us, with coffees in hand and off we went. We arrived promptly, like always, and soon Ronan was called back to anesthesia; I held him tightly as they injected…
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Never-ending tears
How much can one little person endure? It’s amazing because the strength of Ronan seems endless. All he has gone through so far… all he is going to have to go through still. I am exhausted just thinking about it. He is back getting his bone marrow aspirates done and MIBG scan as well. I…
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We’re not married…. we’re still dating;)
I wish I could tell you tonight that we have our answer. But I can’t. Woody and I both left the house on the same page this morning, thinking we knew which approach we were going to take. That all changed after meeting with Dr. Adams, the head of Stem Cell Transplant at PCH. I…
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Do you know if this hotel is pager friendly?? I’m not getting a sig’ on my beeper.
It’s days like today that make me really angry at cancer. I pretty much sat and held Ronan the entire day. We snuggled in bed and on the couch and watched movies. He won’t let me leave his side; not that I would want to. We watched “The Fantastic Mr. Fox,” and the ever so…
angels, anger, arizona, Arts, AZ, best friends, Blood, Bradley Cooper, bullshit, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, dreams, fevers, fuck you cancer, Games, Hangover, immune system, maya thompson, Medicine, Neuroblastoma, New York, new york city, nightmares, Pager, Phoenix, raw, Rockstar Ronan, sloan kettering, soulmates, strength, Television, The Fantastic Mr. Fox, The Hangover, this too shall pass, true love, United States, Video Games, woody thompson -
Do you know if this hotel is pager friendly?? I’m not getting a sig’ on my beeper.
It’s days like today that make me really angry at cancer. I pretty much sat and held Ronan the entire day. We snuggled in bed and on the couch and watched movies. He won’t let me leave his side; not that I would want to. We watched “The Fantastic Mr. Fox,” and the ever so…
angels, anger, arizona, Arts, AZ, best friends, Blood, Bradley Cooper, bullshit, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, dreams, fevers, fuck you cancer, Games, Hangover, immune system, maya thompson, Medicine, Neuroblastoma, New York, new york city, nightmares, Pager, Phoenix, raw, Rockstar Ronan, sloan kettering, soulmates, strength, Television, The Fantastic Mr. Fox, The Hangover, this too shall pass, true love, United States, Video Games, woody thompson -
Hospital Reality sucks
We moved out of the POU (Pedatric Oncology Unit) today and into a different area of the 9th floor. I wish we could have stayed in the POU, but moving to this room is a step up as far as getting us out of here. The POU only has 3 rooms and they are so…
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Hello Insomnia and Nightmares
Awake. Lovely. Fell asleep for about an hour. Woke up due to horrific nightmares. Not going back to sleep anytime soon. I talked via text messaging to Ashley’s mom today; the little girl who underwent surgery. It went very well and she is now recovering over in the ICU. Her mom told me…
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