If love could bring you back, you’d be here

25 responses to “If love could bring you back, you’d be here”

  1. Such love, he’s smiling down on all of us!

  2. a quote you might find helpful…

    “Grief turns out to be a place none of us know until we reach it. We anticipate (we know) that someone close to us could die, but we do not look beyond the few days or weeks that immediately follow such an imagined death. We misconstrue the nature of even those few days or weeks. We might expect if the death is sudden to feel shock. We do not expect this shock to be obliterative, dislocating to both body and mind. . .” — Joan Didion (The Year of Magical Thinking)

  3. Must have been Ronan who sent the most amazing rainbow to my small town in Washington today…thank buddy!! Happy birthday little man you can drop colorful smiles on port Angeles any time!!!

  4. Maya, I thought of you so much this morning (March 12) and I had a helium balloon left from my birthday………I let it go into the sky and said for you…..”Happy Birthday, Ronan….all the way to the moon and back”……..thinking of you with huge hugs and lots of LOVE……Julie Glenn

    1. Woops……I meant May 12……sorry.

  5. I thought of Ronan all day yesterday…and of you, Maya, and your family. The word is spreading about Ronan just like you hoped. Happy Birthday to Ronan from Kansas City. Balloons on Sunday … from our family to your sweet boy.

  6. Jennifer Benedict Avatar
    Jennifer Benedict

    Happy Birthday sweet Boy….

  7. beautiful!

  8. I have never witnessed so much love!! Thank you for allowing us to fall in love with beautiful Ronan!

  9. From your beautiful love, your heartbreaking blog, and your painstaking minutes for the last 8 months, you should know that:
    Children will not be abused because of their parents reading your words
    Growns ups will realize how damn lucky they are, again and again, for having a healthy. tantruming 3 year in the aisles of Target
    Children will have more understanding, patient mothers because those mothers read your blogs
    Grown ups who read this blog will consider themselves lucky when their kid has strep throat, chicken pox, croup, and bronchitis
    Children will be happier because of their parents’ gratitude
    Grown ups will be more loving, patient and selfless – because of you

    If you hope that this blog can effect thousands in honor of your beautiful little boy, it has. You are probably saving hundreds of lives of children whose parents would have otherwise lost their tempers…by writing this and allowing parents to read your wisdom from awful experience. Their children will go unharmed and more loved, more appreciated. This should be published and required reading for parents…you are a hero, and so is Ronan, of course. We’ll be letting bunches of beautiful balloons go in honor of Ronan on Sunday. What is his favorite color?

  10. I wish I had been in Longview yesterday. I heard the skies filed with balloons. I am so happy all these people took part in it. Your rockstar will never be forgotten. We love you all.

  11. You don’t know me but you and your family are continuously in my thoughts and prayers. I go about my day differently because of the things you write and the lessons Ronan so beautifully taught. He will forever be in the hearts of so many who never got to meet him.

    I shared a little on my blog today about how you and Ronan will pop into my head at different times and I am different, more appreciative of the little things, than if you had never shared your incredibly heartbreaking and difficult journey. I hope in some small way I can help you to get the message about Ronan and pediatric cancer out there too.

    With much love,

  12. The sun was shinning in Kelso WA when we let our balloons go. I thought of Ronan smiling down. He was happy to see all those balloons. ❤

  13. Maya & Woody, Liam & Quinn, i thought of Rockstar Ro all day yesterday and sang him happy birthday!

    Beautiful video for a beautiful blue eyed Rockstar!!! Thanks for sharing!

  14. Melissa Sager Avatar
    Melissa Sager

    Ronan…we let balloons go for you in kelso today! It was the neatest thing…at 4pm whn we were all letting our balloons go, the wind picked up and carried them so far! At that moment I had chills and just told you happy birthday and we loved you too!! I want to think that was you in the wind making us know you were there! Thanks for that!

    Melissa Sager and family

  15. I have only just began to read your beautiful heartfelt blog about your sons life. You are an amazing strong woman for sharing your families experience.I will never tak another day for granted because of your son. My daughter will be turning 3 on Sunday the 15th and what better way to celebrate the life of Ronan by releasing my daughters Birthday balloons in to the air here in Idaho. Thank you for sharing your precious sons life with us, you and your family are truely and inspiration.

    Lots of love to your family,
    Lindsey from Idaho

  16. Maya its taken me a few days to be able to write this to you because every time I sit down to write I cannot seem to find the right words. As a mother of a 3 1/2 year old a 5 year old my heart physically aches for you. I am keeping you, Woody, Liam, and Quinn in my prayers as you relearn how to live each new day. You are an amazing mother and have shown strength that you should have never had to find. I want you to know that even though I never got to meet little Ronan, he has changed my life. He has changed the way I look at life and my children (even at the times they are screaming their little heads off). There are even more hugs and love and kisses each day. And I am thankful to him for that and for you for sharing your fight. I will continue to pray that with each new day you will learn how to live and be happy again without ever having the love and blessings and vibrant energy that Ro brought to your life far from your memory.

    Sending love and hugs,

  17. Ronan, Happy Birthday! You and your incredible mommy have changed my life today, and you will always remind me to live my life to the fullest! I will appreciae every second of every day with my children. Continue to rock it from above kid! All of our love to you and your family!

  18. Nikki willett Avatar
    Nikki willett

    You are an AMAZING mom. You’re helping me to be a better mom to my 3 kids. I’m praying for you and family so hard. And now I think I’ll go walk around Target for your Ronan baby.

  19. I am a mother to small boys (4 and 1) and as we all know it can be challenging at times. Life is busy, kids are unpredictable, work is hectic….BUT

    I want you to know that today after reading your unimaginable story, my life will forever be changed. I made a promise to Ronan (and myself) that I will live each moment the best I can. I will be a more patient mother, a more loving wife, a better friend and remember to be grateful for this wonderful life I am living.

    Thank you for sharing and helping me to be a better me.
    Love to you and your family.

  20. I swore I wouldn’t read your blog at work anymore because I could not afford to recompose, reapply make and make nice for the people I had to interact with for the rest of the day. But today, I had to check in and see how you spent Ronan’s birthday and to see how you were holding up. Hang in there Maya! Thinking of you and your family a lot these days. Lots of hugs from friends across town! The Chavez Family, in Glendale, AZ

  21. Ronan, I thought a great deal about your Mommy yesterday. How cruel that she would have to celebrate your 4th birthday without you physically being there. We know you really haven’t left your Mama, your Daddy or your brothers, but it doesn’t make this hurt any less or feel any less real. I’ve said before that no good comes out of your mommy losing you but I have a feeling she’s going to have a new obsession; finding a cure for this ugly disease. All the beautiful and extremely raw writing is undoubtably going to help other mothers fight for their babies Ro and they will know they aren’t alone. One thing is for sure, you’ve made your Mama very proud to call you her son. Your journey doesn’t stop here and I know it makes her smile to feel your presence all around. You know the days she needs it most and it is of great comfort to have you there. Xoxo

  22. Shannon, Emilys mom Avatar
    Shannon, Emilys mom

    Happy birthday baby ronan! Such a sweet sweet boy! Thinking of you all!


  23. I have seen how you sign off your blogs “see you in my dreams.” I was told a long time ago, that when you dream about someone who has left you, that is there way of coming back and telling you that they are ok now and not to worry about them. I strongly believe that. So, when you dream about Ronan, that is his way of coming back to tell you that he is ok!

  24. Betsy Schlect Avatar
    Betsy Schlect

    Maya, I just found out today about sweet Ronan losing his battle. We were so hopefully that he would win this battle, My thoughs are with you & your family, I will be wearing my purple T-shirt with his picture on it tomorrow . We will never forget your little Warrior…….He was, and still is VERY LOVED !!!

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