Today was beyond depressing. I sat in a hospital room the entire day with Ronan. We didn’t leave once and he made me close all of the shades so it was as dark as it could be. He slept a lot today and I pretty much just cuddled up beside him, talked to him, and rubbed his back. He perked up a little bit when I told him that he would be able to come home tomorrow. After I told him this, he grabbed my face and kissed me. Ronan may not be big on words this week; but actions speak louder than words and that right there proves what I’ve know all alone. Baby boy just wants to go home. Woody came by to bring Ro lunch, although he didn’t eat much of it. My friend, Melissa, also came by to bring Ronan his favorite Sponge Bob push-ups. Thanks, Melissa:) Woody pretty much insisted that I come home tonight to have a night at home with him and the boys.
Today, is a new day! Didn’t get to finish my post from last night. I put the computer away to spend some time with Woody, Liam and Quinn. We all cuddled up on the couch and watched a movie. It was so nice to be home and sleep in my own bed. I am back at PCH now and we will be discharged at 6:00 this evening. Ronan already looks like a different boy because he knows he gets to go home tonight. He is happy and interactive today. I am so relieved to see this and can’t wait to take my little monkey home!
I can’t believe today is Ronan’s last day of chemo! What a milestone. I will be doing my dance tonight:) Yesterday, I got an email from a friend of a friend, asking who Ronan’s favorite Star Wars character was. I told her Captain Rex and before I knew it, I was emailing back and forth with two amazing women who have been involved with the making of Star Wars over the years. They were able to get the person who does the voice of Captain Rex to record a message just for Ronan. I played it for him this morning and you should have seen his face! It was priceless and he keeps playing it over and over on my iPad. Thank you Kathryn and Lynne for making Ronan’s day!!!! And thank you to Dee, who is the voice for Captain Rex. You have no idea how happy you have made my child!!! Niki~ You know the most amazing people… thank you my dear friend. I can’t wait to get home and see you my beautiful neighbor!!!!
This morning when I got to the hospital I did what I do every morning and checked on Ronan’s one last long eyelash. It has been hanging on forever. I noticed this morning, that is is gone. His little eyebrows are almost gone as well. I know they will grow back, but that one little eyelash always made me smile. As silly as this sounds, I am really going to miss it. I’m just going to think of it as it being part of Ronan’s body getting rid of all of his cancer so he can come back to us as a brand new boy; cancer free and more beautiful than ever.
I hope you all have a lovely weekend enjoying the precious time you have with your friends and family. Love you all!