No regrets

Today, I spoke with a women named Joy. A friend of mine, Chris, gave me her number. I called her and we had a good talk for about a half an hour. She was full of such light, energy, and positivity. I told her a bit about Ronan and what we are going through. She immediately told me she would put him at the very top of her prayer list and even though she doesn’t go on the internet much, she was going to so she could read about his story. She felt our strength instantly and told me she could feel all of the angels surrounding Ronan. She also told me she really felt like Ronan was going to be the miracle child to come out of this. I believe her, even though I don’t even know her. She seemed to be feeling all of the same things that I feel about my baby and seemed to be very in tune with me. I felt cleansed and renewed after talking to her. My dad would be proud of me. He has always been very in tune with the universe and the world surrounding us. Any guidance I can get though this is going to help me. Whether it be church, a strong feeling, a wish on a star, a prayer, a horoscope…. I am going to embrace ALL OF IT. I am putting my faith in everything and anything I can. Who am I to discriminate?? Or judge?? That’s never been me. I am an open book and I am going to soak in every ounce of anything I can get; like a sponge. I am going to take a leap of faith at ANYTHING that comes my way. I have to know in my heart of all hearts, that I am doing anything and everything to save my child. I stopped listening to the doctors a long time ago. Their numbers and statistics mean nothing to me because they do not know the Ronan that I know. He is a part of my mind, body, and soul. His journey is not stopping here; it is just beginning.

9 thoughts on “No regrets”

  1. Maya, continue to believe in the miracle of Ronan’s experience. Speak and believe in the the power of prayer. Ronan is on our prayer list at church, from the little tots like Ronan to the elderly. I am encouraged by your strength and the strong love you and the family have for each other.

  2. My daughter is a miracle girl. Ronan is a miracle just by his being who he is. sending many angels to embrace you.
    Love, Dorene

  3. Where’s the like button??? 🙂 Always believe in the good, the positive, the light at the end of the tunnel, the glass half full. Yes, there are statistics and stories of negative things, but how is that going to help Ronan? It’s not. I watched a repeat episode of Glee last night (Dream On) and they were talking about visualizing your dreams to make them a reality (or something like that) and it totally made me think of you guys. I am a total believer in the power of positive thinking and honestly, every good thing that has happened to me has happened because I wanted it SOOOO bad, it’s all I could think about, dreaming about how it would happen and seeing the situation played out in my head and how it was going to be….and I’m not talking about wanting so, so badly to drive a BMW or other stupid stuff; I’m talking about LIFE stuff. My career and my two amazingly wonderful dream jobs, my best friend-soul mate husband and our fairy tale relationship, my mother’s health after she has battled cancer (twice!!), my relationship with my family, all of my wonderful friends…..all of those things are real because I wouldn’t settle for anything else. I wouldn’t give up thinking, wishing, dreaming of exactly what I wanted or needed. I know this is what you are doing for Ronan; nothing else but a healthy, strong, good, vivacious little boy is what you think, pray, dream and wish for every second of the day. And that is what is going to happen; that is what he is and that is how he is going to stay! You don’t allow any negative thoughts to enter into your mind, because there is no need for them….and you know that. Keep up your strength and your positive attitude, it is helping more than you know. Again, I promise I’m not a crazy hippie, but I totally believe in this “being in touch with the universe” stuff you talked about. It’s real and there WILL be a happy ending! Oh, please let me know when Ronan’s foundation is set up; I have some great connections and really want to get some fund raising started for him 🙂

  4. The Universe is a powerful thing. It conspires to help us grow and if we listen and pay attention……..it guides us in the right direction. I truly believe you are on the right path for a complete healing of your baby! He and your family are an inspiration.

  5. Taylor Swift’s song lead me to you blog, so naturally I started reading from the beginning, I may know how the story ends, but reading this, you must be the strongest woman in the world. You are such an inspiration. I pray for you and your family everyday, stay strong, I hope only good things come your way because God knows you deserve it!

  6. Taylor Swift’s song lead me to you blog, so naturally I started reading from the beginning, I may know how the story ends, but reading this, you must be the strongest woman in the world. You are such an inspiration. I pray for you and your family everyday, stay strong, I hope only good things come your way because God knows you deserve it!

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