Come on ANC counts! Come back up so we can go home!

We are going to be here for a few days. Ronan’s fever is gone but his ANC (absolute neutrophil counts) are at 0. The normal range for the ANC is 1.5 to 8.0 (1,500 to 8,000)This basically means he has no immune system. This is pretty typical after the 7-10th day of chemo treatments. They want to see his numbers come back up before they send us home and packing. It’s fine by me….I feel safe here with people monitoring him 24/7. He asked if he could go home today. I told him not today. He just said, “O.K. Can I have my Star Wars sheets?” I asked him if it was ok for me to run home and get some things while Woody stayed with him. He said yes and sent me away with a list of things he needed. His list included me taking his favorite blanket,(Gigi) home to wash it. He asked that I return with his sheets, a pillow, string cheese, Star Wars underwear, and “guys helmets,” aka, his Star Wars action figures.

I ran home and showered and Trish picked me up and we met my other friend, Christy, for breakfast. Christy even skipped church for me this morning. Bless her heart. She, Trish, and I sat and had our own church this morning. It was so nice to sit and pow wow with them. The table next to us was a mom and dad with their 2 very young children. I watched them forever and the interaction that was going on between them. Typical stressed out mom over her 2 year olds table manners and not sitting still. Dad was very relaxed and trying to help mom get the little girl to sit still but she was not listening. The mom got upset and grabbed her daughter and they left before she even had a chance to eat much of anything. I used to be that mom. Things like that seemed so important at the time. It’s only that you realize after going through something like this, that they are not.

After breakfast, Trish took me to Target and then home to help me fold my mounds of laundry and put it away. I take such pride in staying on top of these things that’s it’s hard for me to watch them pile up. I know this is part if my control issue and I just need to let some things go. Easier said than done. I’m a compulsive neat freak/cleaner.

Back at the hospital now. Ronan is sleeping. This room is so depressing. I don’t understand why they make hospitals this way. So dark and sad. Our roommate has been sitting in his bed since we got here yesterday with the lights off and T.V. on. I hate the T.V. on in the middle of the day. Drives me bonkers. I’ve pulled open Ronan’s shades and am trying my best to make this place as cheery as possible. He’s been listening to Radiohead and Pearl Jam on my iPad. He loves music. I am trying my hardest to drown out the sounds of Hannah Montana in the background. Thanks for checking in with us and loving us. We are so lucky to have all of you.


4 thoughts on “Come on ANC counts! Come back up so we can go home!”

  1. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers, you are such a brave and strong mom keeping guard over your warrior! Sending warm thoughts and well wishes your way. I was at an American Cancer Society event this weekend that focused on the money being raised to fight cancer, while there I saw a fountain in the corner, with stones around it. I wrote Ronan’s name on one of the stones and put it in the fountain of Hope. God Bless you and your family, as well as all your friends! Keeping these prayin’ knees from getting lazy!
    Susan Monroe

  2. Hi Woody and your precious family: I am Jeremy Crotts’ mom. I remember such fun times at Sunnyslope High School. Please know that your family and especially your precious little boy are in my prayers daily. My Bible Study group has added your family to our prayer list and every week we pray for all of you. Please give my regards to Charlie and Kay. I will follow all the progress on the blog. Thanks for keeping us posted on exactly how we can pray. BTW – Jeremy’s sister, Rebecca, went to school with Niki Calvin (Tarbell)….It really is a small world!! Please count me among your prayer warriors. Sincerely, Margaret Crotts

  3. Your posts are absolutely wonderful and honest, Maya. Usually I close them feeling caught-up on Ronan’s progress beating this horrid disease and knowing that you have a great support system. I also smile when I think of your love for Woody and the boys. I think you’re so smart for expressing your vulnerability and being truthful. Often I don’t respond because it just feels like you’re handling things beautifully and doing everything you possibly can for Ronan. Hang in there. We are all here, praying for you, your family, and the Rockstar.

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