I hate cancer
13 months without you and 9 years with Liam and Quinn
Ronan. Turns out, I don’t do so well, in Coronado. I don’t think I did so well here last year, and I don’t think I’m doing so well here, this year either. It just dawned on me, a few days ago as to why. It dawned on me, while I had been sitting…13 months of fuckery, arizona, basketball, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, Coronado, Family, Happy 9th Birthday, honesty, I hate cancer, i love you, L and Q, little seal, love, maya thompson, Music, Neuroblastoma, new memories, new york city, phoenix children’s hospital, Rockstar Ronan, Ronan Sean Thompson, sadness, sick to my stomach, sitting in the sand, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, Travel, true love, twin boys, twins, vacation, woody thompson
A tutu, mustache wearing, dance party, hike with a little badass Bee
Ronan. I cooked the eggies this morning. And the sausage. And bacon. Fruit. I had croissants that Rita gave me last night, but I forgot to take them out of your daddy’s car. They were the kind that are frozen and you leave them out over night, to rise. Your daddy called me this afternoon.…angels, anger, arizona, AZ, best friends, bullshit, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, Hiking, honesty, I hate cancer, i love you, iPhone, mandy bee, maya thompson, Mountain, Neuroblastoma, Outdoors, Phoenix, Recreation, Rita, Ro baby, Ronan, strength, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, true love
Because Kids get Cancer, too.
Ronan. September 1st. Childhood Cancer Awareness Month. How many people out there, are aware? Not enough. Or if they are aware, they are choosing to ignore it. Assholes. If everyone was AWARE and not IGNORING it, you may still be here. I truly believe that. Was I that unaware Asshole? Totally. Do I wish…anger, arizona, awareness, Breast Cancer, Cancer, childhood cancer, Conditions and Diseases, Del Mar, F U Cancer, Fat Ass, Gold Ribbon, honesty, I hate cancer, i hope you are safe, Intuition, Kids get Cancer too, Las Vegas, LuLu Lemon, maya thompson, Melatonin, Mr. Sparkly Eyes, Neuroblastoma, phoenix children’s hospital, Rockstar Ronan, September Childhood Cancer Awareness, Stupid Smokers, sweet dreams, tears, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, truth, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, twins
I hate you, August 12th
Ronan. Is it August 12th yet? The day of your diagnoses? I’ll never forget that day. I can remember every single detail, so vividly. I remember sitting in the ER with you, waiting to get your CT scan. You were so mad at all the doctors and you wouldn’t let anyone touch you, until Dr.…
Yay! Awesome! Best 4th of July, EVER!!!! (bullshit)
Ronan. 4th of July is over baby. I’m still here. Quinn is sleeping in the middle of my bed and Macy is on the other side of him. I made it through today, by the skin of my teeth. I woke up this morning and went for a run with Macy. Well, kind of.…angels, anger, arizona, AZ, beaches, best friends, Board Games, bullshit, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Clonetroopers, Coronado, Emptiness, Family, I hate cancer, I miss you, Independence Day (United States), laughter, Liz Kotalik, Louis Vuitton, Master Yoda, maya thompson, Neuroblastoma, New York Miss Macy, Phoenix, phoenix children’s hospital, Rockstar Ronan, sadness, San Diego, Smokers, summer, tears, Tennis, The 4th of July, The Coronado Shores, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, twins, woody thompson, Yoda
Ronan. Your birthday. Daddy’s birthday. Liam and Quinn’s Birthday. Next up…. Father’s Day. Tomorrow. It’s hard enough having you gone, but having these “celebrations,” without you is unbearable. Tomorrow, I will somehow manage to get myself out of bed, somehow manage to go on about the day, somehow I will let your daddy know…arizona, AZ, beaches, birthdays, Boogie Boarding, bullshit, California, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Coronado, Coronado Shores, Debbie Downer, Fucking Father’s Day, fucking firsts, Halloween, hotel del, I hate cancer, little seal, maya thompson, Neuroblastoma, open wound, Phoenix, phoenix children’s hospital, Rockstar Ronan, Ronan Sean Thompson, sadness, San Diego, seaweed, sunshine, Surfing, swimming pools, The Lunds, woody thompson
The knot in the pit of my stomach is back and stronger than ever. So bad, that I am convinced I have an ulcer. I spent most of the day trying to get things done, while begin doubled up in pain. I also had to hang up the phone with my mom because I couldn’t…angels, anger, arizona, AZ, best friends, blue eyes, bone marrow, boys, bullshit, Cancer, Chemotherapy, childhood cancer, Childhood Disease, Conditions and Diseases, Dr. Eshun, Dr. Kushner, Dr. Modak, Energy, fear, friends, fuck you cancer, Home, honesty, I hate cancer, marriage, maya thompson, MIBG, Music, Natural killer cell, Neuroblastoma, New York, new york city, New York Miss Macy, pain, Parenting, raw, soul mates, strength, tears, the most beautiful boy, The Ronan Thompson Foundation, tricia tinney, twins, United States, woody thompson
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn? That’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Sooooo, I made the mistake of watching the movie “7 pounds” tonight. I knew it was a bad idea from the start. Way too sad but I wanted to see if I would feel anything from watching it. I’ve kind of been freaking out that my medication is making me numb to everything. I don’t…
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