Going Back to New York

Ronan. I am leaving tonight to go back to New York. Melissa, Fernanda, Stacy, Becca, and Carolyn will be joining me. It will be a wonderful very busy few days and nights with my awesome board members (minus 2:( We’ll miss you T and T). We all are very much looking forward to seeing our Fairy RoMo, Katie Couric and that sweet girl named Taylor. I can’t wait to get back to our favorite city. I have so many wonderful memories with you there that will never be overshadowed by our last day at Sloan. I won’t let that day ever get in the way of all of our adventures, laughs, smiles, and happy times where it was just you and me against the world in that great big city.

I miss you. I love you. I hope you are safe. Thank you for all of the lovely people you have put in my life. I am so thankful to be sharing this with them. I love you, baby doll.

39 thoughts on “Going Back to New York”

  1. That is one of my fav. pics of u and Ronan.It is just so beautiful,U r both so beautiful. OH AND BY THE WAY “FUCK U CANCER”,FOR TAKING SUCH A BEAUTIFUL LTTLE BOY, AND DESTROYING A BEAUTIFUL FAMILY!!!!!!!!!

  2. It is truly amazing to see this pain, this grief (that we all share with you, in our own way) starting to move mountains. Please know you have a huge cheering section out here. Safe travels and keep us posted!

  3. I know it is your intention, and the only way you know how to live now….but I just wanted to say how much Ronan lives through absolutely everything you do and how beautifully you do that. I know you will just say that it is all Ronan….and I wouldn’t possibly argue that point with you. It is undeniable that he is surrounding all of this. Thanks so much for creating such a powerful, wonderful force that Ronan is. I am so sorry that bad things happen to extraordinary people. That really sucks. Just want to say…you are still doing a great job of being a mommy to Ro. He has got to be proud of you….to the moon and back.

    1. So well put Alanna. So much of this is Ronan’s spirit, but I believe that all of this magic would not be manifesting without the amazing power of Maya’s spirit too. You are a great duo– still and for always. Was it Fernanda who said that it would have been totally understandable if you would have spent a year in bed? It would have been. I probably would have. But you have done an amazing job of channeling your grief– and peoples’ lives will be changed because of it. Onward!

  4. This photo is one of my favorites and speaks volumes. Thank-you for sharing your world, life, hopes, dreams and successes.

  5. Safe travels. Enjoy my city. NYC !!! Can’t wait to hear all about your adventures!!! You are moving mountains!!! XO

  6. Safe travels Maya!!! NY will never be the same and will forever be change thanks to you!! “FUCK U CANCER” looking forward to see you and hear your great news!! God bless you and all your family today and every single day of forever!!!

  7. what a great picture of you and Ronan. Hope your trip to NY is everything you need it to be. Looking forward to hearing what you guys are working on πŸ™‚ Love to you and your boys and baby poppy!

  8. This picture is so full of emotion…raw and pure, it brings tears to my eyes and makes my throat burn for the pain you must feel…but it also says to me that you know Ro is so proud of you and your team. In your heart you chose this picture because today would have been a kissing day, a happy day, a day to see all the people that still bring lil sparks of joy into your life…they help your feel his presence when so many days you feel alone. Maya I hope you take time to enjoy the next few days in NYC, and that some idiot doesn’t talk to loud on their cell phone when you visit a fav spot of yours and Ro’s. I hope that you’ll hear a song or see a pair of sparkly shoes and feel your baby doll right beside you as keep fighting for childhood cancer. You and your family is always in my thoughts…take care and big hugs from Arkansas.

  9. You are such an amazing and strong woman and I just wanted to let you know that there are people all around the world that are supporting you. Keep doing what you do because you’re inspiring people everyday to make the world a better place. Give cancer that ass-whooping it’s long deserved! I wish you a safe trip to NYC and I hope you have lots of great adventures!

    Stay sparkly!
    Love from Canada

    P.S. Everybody needs one of these shirts.

  10. Your love story between you and Ronan is every TRUE mother’s story, but how you put it into words is truly beautiful!!! You are an inspiration to everyone who has lost a child and I pray that God blesses you and your family!!!

  11. Hi Maya! I am sorry for your loss and heart-ache. You are an amazing Mama and person, spreading the word and becoming an activist for all these children (and families) affected by cancer. Please post when you will be on the Katie Couric Show, I would love to tape it.
    Janine from New York
    PS I am a friend of Cindy Campbell’s. You two are very special people and your efforts have made a HUGE difference in the lives of many people πŸ™‚ Something good must come out of your loss and pain. XXXXX

  12. Hey me and some others are planning a fundraiser for Ronan’s foundation. I’d love to chat with you about it and fill you in on what all might be going on. And I need to get your permission on a few things. Thanks for your time(:

  13. Maya, I have been waiting for a month and a half to finally post a comment. I discovered this blog back in early September when “Ronan” first came out. I’m a huge fan of Taylor so I downloaded the song, and after listening I was curious as to who these sweet words were about. I of course googled the meaning and stumbled upon your amazing blog. Ever since that day I have spent my down time between classes, on my lunch break at work, or while eating my breakfast reading your heartbreaking, but so beautiful story. I have finally caught up with you, and you family and ronan. I just wanted to say that you truly inspire me. You are so strong, and brave and such an amazing mama to your 3 lovely boys & little baby girl on the way. I feel like we have so much in common. I myself swear wayy too much & often get scolded for my profanity, and that is just one small thing. I just want to do whatever I can now to help raise awareness for childhood cancer and to help keep Ronan’s spirit alive. Right now I am a psychology major & I am now trying to figure out the best way to use this degree to change lives. I’m not sure what else there is for me to say, but I hope you continue to fight this fight and you continue to allow Ronan to inspire others. Fuck you cancer!

  14. Maya,

    I don’t even know how I stumbled upon your blog. I know one minute I was listening to Taylor Swift’s song, thinking, I could have written this song myself in tears, and then found myself here. I lost my daughter, Isabella, when she was 16 months old almost 10 years ago. Typing that out makes it sound like so long ago. Some days it feels like it’s been the longest 10 years of my life and others it feels like it’s only been weeks since she died. I always used to tell her (and my kids who are here now) ‘I love you to the moon and back’. I’m so sorry you had to watch precious Ronan suffer. Cancer is a bitch. Ronan will NEVER be forgotten, and it looks like there is a lot of people who are going to make sure that happens =). Congratulations on your little miss!

  15. what do they say **A PICTURE SAYS A THOUSAND WORDS** what an amazing gift you share with us Maya…I look forward to helping you and everyone else knock the sh*t out of Childhood Cancer, and will be cheering you on as well as sending you strength this week in NY.

  16. I will admit that I am not a huge TSwift fan, even though I have been to her concert twice (twin 7 year olds that LOVE her). But her song led me to you. Whick lead me to read your entire blog in 2 nights. Your blog in turn led me to SuperTy, which I also read as quickly as possible. You two women have inspired me soooo much. Before RoBaby I didn’t even know Pediatric Cancer had a month, honestly, I felt like breast cancer probably had all the months of the year already. I myself have two sweet baby boys, they are 1 year and 2 weeks apart to the date! When the younger, Eli, was born 6 weeks early and on his brothers actual due date, he had horrible jaundice. So bad we spent a week in the hospital when he was a 3 days old. I remember busting into tears in the Drs office, it was just jaundice, but he was so tiny, less than 5 lbs. It broke my heart in two to think of his poor little body, not to mention all the bilirubin checks he would get….a heal prick every three hours. Reading your stories….I cannot imagine. You are one of the bravest women EVER. Today I spoke with my husband, and, it may not be able to be this coming September, because I want to be so prepared for this, but I am painting my town gold. I would like to do an event each weekend, but that might have to be a thing we build on. I’m in the process of making a list of sponsors and finding out if the town has any laws on this and that. I don’t come from a huge area, my actual hometown population is 658, but I want you to know my goal of making north east Arkansas Go for Gold!!! I have ideas, but am also willing to take any advice you could offer. Thank you for being such a strong and beautiful woman and mother. I don’t know your pain, but I want to save other family’s and sweet and spicy babies from knowing what Ronan did. I love and pray for your family always.

    Sarah Cooper
    sarahbelle_um@yahoo.com (yeah, yeah, medical student, nerd, yeah yeah yeah πŸ™‚

  17. Yikes…read my previous comment…typing from an iPad, PLEASE forgive the type-o problems…..I minored in English I swear! πŸ™‚

  18. Is your email still the same as it was. The Mayawoody@gmail. I tried emailing you about a possible fundraising thing. I read that from a post from 1 1/2 yrs ago I think.

  19. This is my favorite picture of you and Ro as your love for each other is so evident. Rock NYC girls–I know Ro will have good stuff around each and every corner for you!

  20. Have fun in NYC! Hmm for some reason I have always imagined you with a NY accent, but you’re from the Pac NW so you probably don’t sound like that at all πŸ˜€

  21. Wow, i just read your entire blog in one week and i have to say you are such an inspiration! I am sure Ronan is proud of you. Thank you for reminding me to not sweat the small stuff! I live in Canada and love the F U bracelets, are they available here?

  22. How come childhood cancer doesn’t have a huge, widely known month, like breast cancer? With breast cancer awareness month, everything goes pink. Why doesn’t everything go yellow in September? Breast cancer is one type of cancer. Childhood cancer is just that, all childhood cancers. How come we don’t really hear a bunch of news stories about survivors, or see a bunch of memorials to a few of the many children who have died? And you can find breast cancer awareness things year-round, but you can barely find childhood cancer awareness things in September. Why? We need to do something about this. We can’t let everyone else forget about them. They deserve to be honored and looked up to. We need to find a way to make this happen.

  23. I’m having the worst time with people these days. I go on Facebook and people are complaining about their jobs or husbands, or talking about their new freaking shoes, and I just want to post, “WHO GIVES A SHIT! DON’T YOU KNOW KIDS ARE DYING OF FUCKING CANCER?!!”

    1. I feel the same way, Stacey. Romney and Obama each spend close to a billion dollars on their campaigns…money used to mudsling with…what a freaking waste! If even half of that money were redirected toward something good and meaningful, like finding cures for childhood cancers….well……..if only. I feel like so much money is wasted…in government, on celebrities and on sports stars. I really admire Taylor and have a newfound respect for her for trying to use her fame to help others and make a difference. I wish more would do the same. I hate childhood cancer with a passion. It took my niece, Peyton Elizabeth Binder, and Ronan and Ty and too many others.

    2. That’s so fucking true. I totally agree with Kate. All of this money goes to seemingly big, important things, but they’re all trivial compared to this fucking stuff. Why can’t this money be spent on things like this?? Why the fuck is it basically fucking wasted on stupid fucking TV ads and other fucking stuff like that. There are pure, innocent children DYING here, and what do they do? Pretty much NOTHING!! If even HALF of that fucking money was spent on great causes like this… well, maybe we would be able to get the fucking means to find a cure for this, and fucking cancer would die, just like it fucking makes everyone else!!!!!! We need to find a way to make this happen. It can’t be a side job, either- it has to be an obsession. We need to tell all of those fucking people to smarten the fuck up, and fucking spend their money on something IMPORTANT, like this. Okay, I get that running for president is important, but no where NEAR as important as this. Cancer is a murderer, a mass murderer, but they barely spend any money at all on trying to stop it. They might make a donation here or there, but they need to do it constantly. There’s no excuse for them not to.

  24. Thought of you and Ronan all day today as I was doing the anesthesia for a neuroblastoma resection on a little girl. So sad and not fair.

  25. Maya,
    Never would I have thought that by age 13 I would be so emotional. Over the past couple days I have dedicated myself to reading every single blog post of yours. During this entire time, I have had “Ronan” on replay. I don’t think I have ever cried this much in my entire life.
    Your sons story made me realize that there is so much more to life than being good at sports, being popular in school, having the nicest clothes; I realized that in life you have to help others. That’s why, I am going to try to raise money at my school to find a cure for cancer. I am going to dedicate the entire thing to Ronan.
    Ronan made a difference in my life. Even though I never met him (and what an honor it would be if I could’ve), he made a difference.

    Life life for the moment… Because everything else is uncertain. ~ Louis Tomlinson

  26. I just found out Ronan and I share a birthday. Wow. Can’t say how amazed I was. Next year I’m turning 19, and Ronan would be turning 6, so we’re going to celebrate together! I’ve already decided on a Star Wars cake. I love Star Wars too, even moreso now than I did before I knew about Ronan. Be safe in NYC, I’m sure Ronan is watching over you though, and over Woody, and Liam, and Quinn, and his baby sister.

  27. Maya, your family’s story is surreal. I cannot tell you how many people I have shared your son’s name with, told them your story, and urged them to please please buy Taylor Swfit’s song! I will continue to do so for the sake of pediatric cancer research. Your little boy is a shining star. I, for one, know that I will hold his story close to my heart forever.

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