A few things……

First and foremost, I hope you all are having a beautiful day. I hope your day is full of lots of love, laughter, kisses, and hugs. I hope your day is full of all the beauty that surrounds you and I am so honored that Ronan has made you all so much more thankful for the blessings in your life. As much as I miss him, I truly am thankful for the many gifts he has left all of us especially all the love that he continues to spread around the world, to people like you. I know that his love is something that will continue to inspire countless people and for that I am truly grateful.

I wanted to take a minute to also talk about The Brightest Star in the Sky event that is happening at The Biltmore this Friday. As of now, almost 300 tickets have been sold. I am in shock at how quickly this event was pulled together and I had absolutely nothing to do with it. I cannot say thank you enough to everyone involved and it is even more amazing that so many of the people who have worked so hard on this, that I’ve never even met. They have taken it upon themselves, out of the kindness of their hearts to do something so selfless and inspiring. To everyone who has so generously been donating items left and right, thank you so much. As I’ve said before, I don’t have an exact plan as far as what we want to do with the money that is being raised in Ronan’s name for his foundation. I have a number in mind as far as how much I want to raise, and it is big. A big part of me knows we are going donate it  to research, but Woody and I both are going to put a lot of time and effort into finding out right facility to donate it to. This is a decision that is going to take a lot of time and effort. As Woody says, he wants to sit down with the doctors and have them tell us why we should believe in them and what they are doing. We want them to answer to us as to why they deserve to receive such a gift in honor of our son. We have to believe in our hearts in what they are doing and that they are going to be the one’s who are deserving of this gift. I also know I would like to help out other families who may not have the support that we do, but deserve it just as much. In my heart of all hearts, I just want to make a difference and in no way shape or form could we do this without all of you. Someday, I hope to help with saving the lives of these precious children and I hope you all know it is not just me doing this, but you as well. It is because of your generosity, your love, your support, the taking the time to care and spread Ronan’s story around that I know great things are going to be accomplished. Please know that I am so very thankful for that. You are each helping to save my sanity and my family. I know I say this all the time, but you all give me such strength when I feel like I can’t go on. I am thankful for all of you every second of everyday.

Today, I am going to try to enjoy the sun and the beach as much as I possibly can. Today, I am going to try to bask in the love of my twins, family, and friends that surround me. Today, I am not going to hide in my bed like I did most of yesterday. Today, I will try to have a good day for my Ronan and for my twins because they deserve to see their mama smile. I love you all. Thank you again for everything and please go and enjoy Friday night if you can. It is going to be an amazing event and it is just the beginning of all the things that are to come in honor of my blue-eyed boy. A special thank you to the group of people who I am just calling my busy little bees. You all are amazing!!!!


P.S. Yesterday it was the birthdays of my two beautiful friends, Sarah and Susie. I totally blanked on their days which I feel awful about. You two know how much I love you and how much you mean to me. I hope your birthdays were filled with love. I know Ronan was surrounding you giving you one of his famous winks and smiles. I love you both.


15 responses to “A few things……”

  1. HI Maya….thank you for your wonderful thoughts on you and Woody taking your time to find the right place for the money. I honor that decision. I think it is a decision that will take time because in my heart I do not believe all research as the best interest of cancer patients. If possible I would love to see more research done on cancer prevention so that we can catch it before it ever hits. That has been my focus since Ronan touched my heart months ago!
    I have been talking to homeopaths, nutritionists etc.
    We will all continue to raise awareness and be present at all functions that have to do with Ronan and your cause…..and as many moms have mentioned we are all here to support you in anything you decide to do.
    Please know there is no rush when it comes to finding the right place for all the money earned:) I know you and Woody will make the right decision to help other families too.
    I am proud of you and know that you struggle moment by moment and I hope that all of our strength comes to you when you need it!

  2. Hey Maya,
    I found your blog yesterday from Lord knows which blog, but I just wanted you to know how much your story has touched me. I have read every.single.post. from the beginning. And no I did not neglect my kids during said reading time.

    We have had some (minor) health issues with our five year old in the past year, and reading your blog has really opened my eyes even more about how important each day is. I am *really* trying to live for each day and not look in the future, even though that’s damn hard.

    I have your family on my prayer list, and I want you to know how REAL you are, I have had some of those same feelings about God, wondering why bad things happen to good people, and why horrible people keep on ticking…

    Anyway, I am sure I could ramble on for a few more hours but will leave it at that. I LOVE how blogland can bring people together in more ways than we can even understand:)

    Much love to you and your family, mama….


  3. Maya,
    You inspire me everyday by reading your blogs. My heart is absolutely broken over what has happend to your family. I just want you to know even though we don’t know each other that if you ever need anything all you have to do is ask 🙂

  4. Maya
    I found this book was helpful after a particularly difficult loss – written by a woman who lost her teenage daughter – take a look on Amazon, whenever you are ready.
    You are amazing!
    “Healing after Loss” Martha Whitmore Hickman

  5. Maya, I’ll be there tomorrow because when Rockstar Ronan’s blue eyes and fight for this horrible disease captured my heart I told myself I will help you fight!

    I lost my mother to Cancer in2004 and she didn’t have a chance to fight. We found out a week before she passed 😦

    Since then I’ve always donated funds to the Cancer Society and Stand up to Cancer funds. Now I can help childhood Cancer in Rockstar Ronan’s honor. I am so glad that Woody and yourself will be doing all of the research and interviews with the Doctors to know where your donation will go, and I’m sure when you find the right place you will feel it in your heart. Ronan will guide you!

    I hope today you are having a good day. Enjoying SD, the beach and sun. Enjoying the love of your twins.

    Peace and strength.
    Sending you strong hugs mama bear.
    Thinking of you and your beautiful blue eyed Rockstar Ronan.

  6. Go out and enjoy your beautiful boys, the sunshine and beach. I know you are going tofindthe right answer to use the money that will make Ronan and your family proud….look at Mimi and what all she has done for Arizona concerning breast cancer. You just take time to enjoy and soak that beautiful family in to the fullest.

  7. Praying that Friday’s event will be everything it was meant to be and more!! God bless. Enjoy your day!

  8. Maya,

    I, like all others who follow your blog, have been inspired by you. I think of your family every minute of every day. You have made me more aware of my surroundings and of the love that still lives in the world. I look at my children differently now. I treasure every glimpse they give me, every kiss the lay on my cheeks, every butterfly kiss they give. We all think “it couldn’t happen to me”…..and then it does.
    I heard a song the other morning as I was watching the sunrise, and all the pictures of you and Ronan filled my mind. He is everywhere.
    Here are the lyrics to the song:

    Never Far Away

    Another mile down the road.
    Another mile from my home.
    Sometimes I feel quite alone as you know,
    As you know all there is to know.

    So hold my heart
    As it’s breaking apart.
    And I’ll
    I’ll hold yours in mine.

    Oh Oh You’re never far away.
    Oh Oh You’re never far away.
    Oh Oh You’re never far away from me.

    I close my eyes and try to see
    See you right in front of me,
    As if you’re only in my dreams,
    But you are
    Everywhere and in between.

    You’re the moonlight
    In the dark of my night.
    And you
    Shine bright so I can see.


    Catch my tears as they fall.
    It’s like I never left at all.
    And all the world feels so small.
    Cuz right now
    We are high above it all.

    Hold me close.
    Don’t ever let me go.
    Tell me
    What I already know.

    Chorus (x2)

    Another mile down the road.

    Thank you Maya and Ronan for all you have given to this world and all you still have left to give.

  9. Hi Maya
    I find my self worrying about you everyday, today I am worrying just a bit less becuase it sounds like you are having a little bit better of a day with your beautiful boys and friends. You continue to insipire me and teach me to be a good mom on a daily basis.

  10. Maya,
    I know this is silly, but I wanted you to know I got my very first fish today, and ANGEL fish and I named him Ronan!

  11. I have been following your story for a while. You are such an amazing woman and mother. You have so much strength. Your sweet blue eyed boy as touched my heart. Many times my husband has come in the room and sees me bawling has I read your blog. Ronan story makes me appreciate each day I have with my two young children. I hug them more and thank the Lord for every second I get to spend with them on this earth. I believe that families are forever and that you can be with them for eternity. I am so sorry for all you and your family have been through. I have told many people Ronan’s and your story. I read this poem and thought it might bring you some comfort. I pray for you and your family to have comfort, peace, and happiness.

    “If before you were born, I could have gone to Heaven and saw all the beautiful souls, I still would have chosen you…
    If God had told me, this soul will one day need extra care and needs, I still would have chosen you…
    If He had told me, that one day this soul may make my heart bleed, I still would have chosen you…
    If He had told me, this soul would make me question the depth of my faith, I still would have chosen you…
    If He had told me, this soul would make tears flow from my eyes that would overflow a river, I still would have chosen you…
    If He had told me, our time here on earth could be short, I still would have chosen you…
    If He had told me, this soul may one day make me witness overbearing suffering, I still would have chosen you…
    If He had told me, all that you know to be normal would drastically change, I still would have chosen you…
    Of course, even though I would have chosen you, I know it was God who chose me for you…
    Thank you God for letting me be your Mommy…”
    Author Unknown

    Erica Miller

  12. If I were still living in Phoenix, I would absolutely be at Ronans amazing event tomorrow! I hope and pray for an amazing turnout and that Ronans beautiful spirit fills the Biltmore, which I’m sure it will….because he is in everything beautiful.

    Maya…..I hope tomorrow is a good day for you. You are such an inspiration to me.

    Lots of love!

    Sara M.

  13. Maya,
    There is such clarity in reading your blogs that you and Ronan are and always will be one. Your love for each other is illuminating. This light, this love will forever remind us what really matters.

  14. yes……you have absolutely changed an entire community! You have also restored my faith in humanity and that people ARE good. I would never be able to thank you for the change in perspective (of people, even the world … as you have reached WAY beyond our little AZ community) that was so desperately needed. You have also given me great clarity to the things that really matter………and for that I am indebted to you, forever. Thank you!

  15. Love to you and your family… Every day i read your blog and see the strength, love, turmoil, courage and hope in your writing. Your beautiful big star will shine forever on all of us, reminding that we all have a purpose. His life is a symbol of love and why we all cannot give up. Thanks for writing. It means a lot to us. Ronan means a lot to us. We love him. WE love what he has left behind. I will walk/run my miles with Team In Training with purple star lighting my path. Every ache and pain we go thru is nothing now. I/we must go on. Stay strong dear friend.

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