Mama and Ro baby take NYC <3


Ronan and I arrived to NYC yesterday morning 5:30 East Coast Time. The flight was great, fast and Ro slept the entire time. We headed to our hotel, checked in, and we were in our room by 6:30 a.m. Ronan was chipper and ready to play, but I told him how it was really only 4:30 in the morning at home so we needed to rest before our big day. He didn’t put up much of a fight, crawled in bed with me and we slept a couple of hours. You’d think I’d be a zombie tonight but I’m not. Must be that NYC energy. We woke up, got ready and headed over to Sloan Kettering. As soon as we arrived to the 9th floor it was party central. They were having a parade for Marti Gras. Ronan loved watching all the action. We spent the next 4 hours having labs drawn, getting his MIBG scan injection, and had an Echo test done on his heart. It was a very long day but we killed a lot of time by playing in the playroom and doing arts and crafts. As much as this sucks, today I found myself having the time of my life with Ronan. I feel so lucky to be able to spend so much time with him. I cherish every second I have with him so much. As the day was ending, we went to finish our last thing which was the Echo test. An adorable girl named Penny took us back into her room and I laid down on the bed with Ronan so he could rest on top of me while she did her thing. The test is really simple and was done in about 20 minutes. Ronan ended up falling asleep on me so I sat and watched Ronan’s little heart on the screen as it pitter pattered away. Penny kept telling me how beautiful and healthy it looked. As soon as Ronan’s little heart started beating away and we could hear it, I completely lost it. I told Penny I was sorry that I couldn’t stop crying and she smiled sweetly and told me that it was totally o.k. I explained to her that hearing his heart beat like that reminded me of when I first heard his heartbeat on an ultrasound. I will never forget what it felt like to hear his heart for the first time and now this. Who would have thought in a million years that I would be listening to Ronan’s heart on a monitor again due to cancer. So. Freaking. Unfair.

After the Echo test we scooted out of Sloan quickly to go back to our hotel and meet one of Auntie Karen’s best friends for dinner. We met Krista at Serendipity and it was such a treat. I’ve heard about her forever and it was so lovely to finally meet her. We had a nice dinner and Ronan and I shared the to die for Frozen Hot Chocolate. He was beyond tired from his day and ended up falling asleep in my lap. Krista and I had a chance to finally get to know each other and I can see why Auntie Karen loves her so much. She was a delight:) Just as we were leaving, Ronan woke up not a happy camper. We were going to take him to Dylan’s Candy Shop, but I decided that we’d better just head back to our room. Krista got us a cab and sent us on our way. We came back here and  talked to Woody, Liam, and Quinn via Face Time on our Macs. Ronan got a big kick out of that. The rest of the night was spent just hanging out and playing. Ronan finally fell asleep a while ago and he has no idea what we have in store for tomorrow. I have yet to tell him that he has to get his MIBG scan. UGH. He is going to be beyond mad that, 1) he has to get his sleepy medicine and 2) that Dr. Maze is not the one giving it to him. I did not want to tell him any of this today because I know he will sit and obsess over it. I’m not telling him anything until right before we go back so they can put him under. I am nervous for this MIBG scan even though we just had one not too long ago. Ronan has been complaining of his right arm hurting for a few days now. I had one of the doctors look at it today and we cannot see any bruising or swelling. So, of course my mind goes to the worst place possible which is something I’m not going to even say out loud. We will know by tomorrow if anything new is going on. I am sick to my stomach tonight. Ronan has also been complaining of his right leg hurting and I have pretty much been carrying him everywhere. I noticed him limping tonight. This has been going on for a while now and has been something we have just been watching closely. As I said before, if anything is going on, we will know by tomorrow. Pray that it is not. I’m thinking positive and just keep telling myself it is his bone marrow healing or growing pains. Please let it be one of those things.

As of now, our plan is to stay here until Thursday or Friday. We will then return around March 20th and that will begin our 5 week long stay. Woody will be coming out with me during that time for a while, thank god. It is really hard to be here without him. He is such a big help to me when he is here. We both really miss him this trip. It’s hard to be a single mom, in a different city, when your kid has cancer. It’s hard but I am strong and know I can do it. New York is going to be the best adventure yet.

That’s all for tonight. Sleepiness is starting to kick in. Let’s just hope it lasts. I am tired of waking up every night at 3 a.m. and not being able to go back to sleep. I call it the witching hour around here. G’night, sweet dreams, and lots of prayers for our Ro baby tomorrow. Love to you all!

xoxo

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9 thoughts on “Mama and Ro baby take NYC <3

  1. susan day

    I am thinking so much of you two tonight and praying harder than ever. Sending every possible positive thought in the world. Much much love…

  2. Michelle Hobbs

    Just reading your post before getting to bed so will spend extra time praying for Ronan and for you! Prayers for good sleep for the both of you, for Ronan to handle the news of his scan and that he goes under easily with different doc, for good news from the scan that eases your concerns about his arm and leg, and prayers for you to reach a place where you know that you are not supposed to do this in your own strength. You might think easy for me to say not being in your shoes, and it probably is, but I do know God is carrying you through this more
    than you might realize! 😉 xo michelle

  3. sonia

    omg, that pic of ronan is adorable and gave me a good laugh. he’s always in such good spirits! i’ll pray for you guys tomorrow!

  4. CW

    So very very many prayers are being sent for Ronan, yourself, and the rest of your family. Love the bedazzled Ronan pic! A jewel like that will always shine!

  5. Christine

    You are an incredible lady! I am so glad you are finding strength in your beloved NYC. Praying for Ronan & your entire family today! Thanks for sharing your touching words & raw emotions with us.

  6. Farrah

    Just wanted to let you know that I am remembering Ronan and all of your family in my prayers. I don’t actually know you, but I love you all nonetheless. I read your blog, and I cry and I smile. Ronan is perfection and you all are a wonderful family. Sending lots of love and prayers to you in NYC!
    P.S. Please let Ronan know I totally dig his style. He is such a snappy dresser!

  7. Marquita Ward

    Lord comfort the whole family and take away all Ronan’s pain the is causing his arm and leg to hurt. Help them find out what to do about this..guide each and every doctor and nurse in Jesus name amen.

  8. jenna berube

    Hoping and praying everything goes great today. Ronan looks so adorable and happy which is a reflection of what a great mom you are. You are such an inspiration for every one. Sending love and prayers and again hope everything goes great today.

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