Update two…. still kind of generic

Maureen, the lady who is assigned to everyone just came in. She is actually able to go into the room to check on Ronan and Dr. L. She said he is making progress, Ro is doing fine, but there is still a lot of work to do. She talked about Dr. LaQuaglia and how meticulous and tedious he is. He’s not in there screwing around; he is focused and he is the best. Maureen has been doing her best to keep us as updated as possible, thank god. I am crawling out of my skin. I asked her if she thought Dr. LaQuaglia would let me see the tumor. She said, it depends on his mood. He may not want me to, because he thinks it will forever be seen as something negative to me. I don’t care about that…. I just want to see it for real solid proof that it is out of my baby. Also, I am curious as to what it looks like. I would tell you all what I would really like to do to it, but that would involve waaaaaay to many swear words.

So, I will leave you with this; FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKING CANCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also, I am listening to Pandora right now and Christina Aguilera’s song Fighter is on. How fitting.

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn’t trust
‘Cause your bluff time is up
‘Cause I’ve had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
‘Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you’re wrong
‘Cause if it wasn’t for all that you tried to do
I wouldn’t know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

‘Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Oh, ohh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you’re going around
Playing, the victim now
But don’t, even begin
Feeling I’m the one to blame
‘Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won’t work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it’s over
‘Cause if it wasn’t for all of your torture
I wouldn’t know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

‘Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

10 thoughts on “Update two…. still kind of generic”

  1. Sounds like the perfect surgeon for Ronan today. Keeping all of you in my prayers. I just had a cry reading your post about carrying your boy to the hospital and to the OR. It must have taken a lot to not break down right there. It’s funny weird things you can remember. I remember sitting in a Sloan waiting room and being impressed with the art on the walls.

    Oh my goodness. Girl to girl shallowness for a second. I LOVE the fact you’re rocking flip flops in NYC when it’s 35 degrees. Nice pedicure!

  2. Maya,Maya,Maya, you just made this old gal smile. Those two fingers
    says it all. Go get em girl. As a retired chaplain I also would go back and forth
    with the news to patients families. It helps calm some of the fears I hope.
    Keep up with kick Ass. D

  3. It is time to go for the positive..just my opinion..stand back and watch God move..He will let you fight spiritually but God is the One with more power than anyone can imagine..in Ephesians 6 it speaks of the weapons we are to use in all the spiritual warfare..the helmet of salvation..the sword of the Spirit..which is the Word of God..the shield of faith..the belt of Truth..(Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life)..and your feet wearing the readiness of the peace that comes from the Good News..
    God’s written promise..His guarantee..vengence is His…and He is to be trusted..He is a promise keeper..
    praying for you all..

  4. I did forget the breastplate of righteousness…God’s gift..freely given. Very important to me as I had that nasty breast cancer..I believe the Lord was dealing with my heart at that time in my life..more so than other times. Still praying for this special day..God is so good.

  5. Yeah! Thanks to Maureen for keeping you updated, and thanks to Dr. L for being the best, and thank the lord for music. You are never out of my thoughts today. I’m still telling everyone I know about Ronan. And how he’s on his way to be cancer free before we know it. Sending love and believing….
    Alyssa
    COLE Prayer Team

  6. I totally get wanting to see the tumor. When my dog had leg amputation surgery for bone cancer, I watched them carry her leg off the operating table, and as hard as it was to see, it was so symbolic of the evil cancer leaving her body and it helped me come to grips that she would live her new life as a tri-pawd. Even though I say my dogs are my kids too, as a mom I know that there is no comparison. What you and so many other childhood cancer families are going through is so hard to grasp because it just seems so unfair. Hanna beat her prognosis and Ronan will too. You will look back on this day and remember how scary it was but you’ll have peace in your heart knowing that you made the right decisions for treatment while Ronan goes on living his rockstar lifestyle.

  7. Doing good Ronan!! Love the picture Maya ♥ Im on the edge of my seat checking my emails for updates…. Thank you for taking time away from going crazy to update us lol Im sure its not easy sitting around waiting for updates

  8. Thanks so much for the updates! Been crying on and off all day and we are all waiting anxiously for your every post. I’m so proud of you and Woo for your strength throughout this entire process. You are true parental role models for us all. Love you!!!

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