Day 5 of chemo… DONE!!!!

Today was a very good day. Ronan’s spirits were great and he smiled a lot. This is our last day of treatment for cycle one. Ronan did great! No side effects at all!!!!  We should be going home on Thursday, thank the lord! It will be so nice to have Ronan back home where we are all the most comfortable.

We spent the morning hanging out, and our friends, Christy and Jack came to visit. They always make us smile:) Woody came by for a bit and we talked to the doctor who will be in charge of Ronan from now on. Dr. Wood will still be here to guide us and follow our journey; but Dr. Watanabe will be the main man in charge of Ronan. Mimi Kay and Papa Charlie came and I went home for about 4 hours. It was just what I needed. I took a good 2 hour nap and a nice shower. It’s amazing how much better a shower can make you feel. While I was at home, Mimi and Papa worked their magic and actually got Ronan to go and explore the playroom that they have on our floor. He has been refusing to visit it with me, so this was a huge breakthrough. He painted a picture, drove a remote control car, and just enjoyed being a child. I could not have been happier with this news.

I had mentioned to my friend, Gay, that I was going to have to set up a preschool at home for R, since he won’t be able to go back to PVUMC this year. Not 2 hours later, she showed up at my house with a beautiful eisel for Ronan, along with a bunch of other learning supplies. Talk about an angel. I am so so so so very grateful for her friendship. She has such an amazing heart. I can’t wait for the day that my 3 boys can play with her 3 boys, all together again. My little M came to visit too! Her sister told her to stop being so neurotic about being pregnant and get down here to see Ronan. Marisa cracks me up. She Googled whether or not she should visit a hospital while she was pregnant and Google decided for her that she was too germy and could infect Ronan. That’s why she has been staying away. Once she was here, I told her to stop it and to come into Ronan’s room. Our guy nurse Danny, was here when Marisa was telling Mimi and I about her findings on Google and he just started laughing. He thought is was hilarious and informed us that there are a ton of nurses working here that are pregnant and that’s Marisa’s findings were wrong. It gave us all a good chuckle and I’m so glad to hear M is not “germy” because I’ve missed her way too much. I ended my night with a visit from my friend, Danielle. Ronan was sleeping the whole time she was here and I was sad she didn’t get to see him, but we sat for a good 2 hours and just talked. We talked about how funny and crazy life is… how you never know what your path will be… how things can change in an instant…how important it is just to be present in your day-to-day things….. We laughed a lot and talked about normal things too. I feel renewed after sitting with her. Her light and energy was so positive and I can tell she is not scared about what we are going through. She knows everything is going to turn out all right.

I’ve had a lot of people ask me why my mom is not here. I figured I’d explain that now… not that I owe anyone an explanation. My mom knows my reasonings and she supports me. First off, let me start by saying that if my mom lived here, she would absolutely be here. But to put her on a plane full of germs is just something I’m not comfortable with right now. Ronan’s immune system is so very vulnerable. The littlest thing could set him off for an infection. I can’t take any chances on that and my mom tends to get sick with a cold or something every time she comes here for a visit. Another big reason, and I’m saying this with tears pouring down my cheeks, is my mom is not a source of strength for me at this moment. I am afraid that having my mom here would make this all too real. It would make me want to fall to the floor and never want to get back up. I cannot bear to look into her eyes and see the pain she is feeling. It would KILL me. I need my mom to get a little stronger before she comes to see Ronan. For his sake, and mine. I want her here more than anything, but I have to surround myself with people who are strong enough to go through this with me right now. My mom is not there yet. I know she will be soon… she seems to be getting stronger everyday. Her time will come when I need her here… it’s just not right now.

I’m tired and it’s time to cuddle up with my little angel. Thanks for thinking of us, loving us, and supporting us. Even after all we’re going through.. I am so very blessed to have the life I do…. everyday with Ronan is a beautiful day.

P.S. Screw you, Cancer!!!

There. I feel better now;)

7 thoughts on “Day 5 of chemo… DONE!!!!”

  1. Maya & Woody
    We love you to the bone. We applaud your bravery and pray for your strength that you express so amazingly. You both are amazing. The positive and confident feelings and thoughts that we all have are working in Ronan’s favor day to day.
    Thank you for your so informative messages for all of us. I can’t go to bed without catching up on the daily events.
    Bless you all and know that the prayers are mighty powerful for a speedy recovery for Ronan and all of you. Getting back home is going to have a whole new meaning to “it’s good to be home”.

    Our special love and concern.
    the McClellan Family

  2. Here is what I saw yesterday when quickly dropping of some items to the Thompson house. Maya beautiful, showered, put together, poised, strong and ready to get back to the hospital. Papa Charlie busy around the house putting things away and getting the house ready for night time. Mimi Kay was at the hospital comforting Ronan while Mom was home giving herself some strengh by getting a tiny amount of sleep and shower something we all take for granted. (Well maybe we moms understand the value of a shower which is hard to squeeze in sometimes:)) Woody was at work providing for the family when you know he would rather be at home with the family and Liam and Quinn were at separate play dates. Little Ronan was at the hospital coming off his last round of Chemo and being a fighter. Talk about an amazing family and a force field. It is odd when such a major crisis comes into our lives and you feel like the world should stop, but it seems to pick up speed like a tornado. The Thompson’s have all been this pillar of strength and able to slow down the chaos. So, me picking up a few items is the easy part. Keep up the strength, but know when to call for help. We all are the reserves and are ready to be called into action anytime you need. You are only human and can only do so much. It is great to let your emotions out too. If only life were easier. May God watch over you all while you are gearing up to get back to your beautiful home and have the family close again. We all love you and would do anything for you all.

    Gay, Barry and The 3 Boys

    PS Call if you get stuck with the shots.

  3. Maya,
    Hannah Huckfeldt’s doctor is Watanabe also. You may want to talk to her mom, Shelley who has the most positive attitude and knows so much about various doctors and hospitals as they’ve gone to MD Anderson in Houston quite a bit. Hannah has had brain surgery, chemo and radiation, so she might be a great resource. Her phone #’s are Work: 480-767-6254 Cell: 602-363-9950
    We keep praying and it sounds like it is helping.
    Love you all,

  4. We will be praying for your mom. I am a friend of your Aunt Rita and Uncle John. I totally understand what you mean about if she was there you’d be on the floor. She will be strong for you and Ronan and your other men. She’ll get there. Your Aunt Rita is a strong woman. She and your uncle have so many people praying for your whole family. Y’all will get through this!

  5. I get you when you say you would fall to pieces with your mom. For some reason moms have that ability. I can be so strong till I see my mom and then the flood gates open and I loose it. Keep up your rest you need it to stay strong.

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