All I want for my birthday is you


Ronan. My birthday is this Friday. You know the only thing I want is the impossible. To have you back. I know that cannot happen, but I will still wish for it every single year that I blow out the candles on my cake. I don’t want to celebrate my birthday because how is it possible to celebrate it without having you here to sing to me, give me sloppy, wet kisses, and make my day truly beautiful the way you always did? I stopped celebrating my own birthday a long time ago. I know trying to fight my birthday every year or ignore it entirely is not going to happen, so I have had to make my own adjustments to it. I let everyone else celebrate it for me and I do my best to plaster that sweet smile on my face to get through the day. I let myself get lost in the love that I feel from your brothers and your daddy and let them remind me that they are still here, loving me and for that I am so very lucky and blessed.

This year, if I cannot have you back, I would like something else. My lovely little board members put together this petition for me as a gift this year. I could not think of a better thing to ask for. I want to turn that White House, GOLD, for the month of September which is the ribbon color for childhood cancer awareness. I want all of these babies and kids to get the recognition they deserve and I cannot think of a better place to start. I need 25, 000 signatures by February 6th. I need help from all of you and I am not above begging.

Please. Take the 1 minute it takes to sign this thing. Please. Tell everyone you know. It is such a small thing, but it could have such a huge impact. I have no doubt with all of you behind this cause, we can get this done. I could sit here and give you 50 different reasons of why this needs to be done, but I’m only going to give you one. Do it because it is the right thing to do.

I love you, Ronan. I will do something “spicy,” for myself on my birthday just for you. I miss you and as always, I hope you are safe.


Thank you all for caring enough to sign. Thank you for making my birthday wish come true. I love you all.