Maureen, the lady who is assigned to everyone just came in. She is actually able to go into the room to check on Ronan and Dr. L. She said he is making progress, Ro is doing fine, but there is still a lot of work to do. She talked about Dr. LaQuaglia and how meticulous and tedious he is. He’s not in there screwing around; he is focused and he is the best. Maureen has been doing her best to keep us as updated as possible, thank god. I am crawling out of my skin. I asked her if she thought Dr. LaQuaglia would let me see the tumor. She said, it depends on his mood. He may not want me to, because he thinks it will forever be seen as something negative to me. I don’t care about that…. I just want to see it for real solid proof that it is out of my baby. Also, I am curious as to what it looks like. I would tell you all what I would really like to do to it, but that would involve waaaaaay to many swear words.
So, I will leave you with this; FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKING CANCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Also, I am listening to Pandora right now and Christina Aguilera’s song Fighter is on. How fitting.
When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn’t trust
‘Cause your bluff time is up
‘Cause I’ve had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
‘Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you’re wrong
‘Cause if it wasn’t for all that you tried to do
I wouldn’t know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
‘Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, ohh
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you’re going around
Playing, the victim now
But don’t, even begin
Feeling I’m the one to blame
‘Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won’t work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it’s over
‘Cause if it wasn’t for all of your torture
I wouldn’t know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
‘Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
ROCKSTAR RONAN 