It’s September 1st. The first day of Childhood Cancer Awareness Month. I’m aware in a way that I wish I never was.

Ronan. I had a productive morning. But now I can’t do anything, except sit her and sob and miss you. I don’t have these days a lot, but when I do, I just have to give in and allow them to come. I love you baby doll. I miss your little voice, so much. I know you miss mine, just as much. I hope you are safe.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T3HsDsrBwb8&feature=g-upl

10 responses to “It’s September 1st. The first day of Childhood Cancer Awareness Month. I’m aware in a way that I wish I never was.”

  1. This is one of my favorite videos!!!!

  2. Sorry today is a hard one for you Maya. Love and hugs today! He was so precious. Praying for you today. xoxo

  3. Turned on my tv and Star Wars was on. Watching it for Ronan before work tonght. I’ll be thinking of him and Yoda. I wish he was back here with you.

  4. I keep you and Ronan in my heart always. 😦 I wish life was fair. He should be here with you.

  5. No child should have cancer. He shouldn’t have suffered. He shouldn’t have died. I am so sorry.

  6. I love that video…it makes me laugh and cry. He’s so perfect.

  7. I love that video… His little voice just fills my heart with love…

  8. Correction: his little voice fills my heart with love and sadness… A smile with tears. This video truly is priceless.

  9. His Lil voice. Your spicy monkey RoMama.
    Always RoLove!!!

  10. Mya, It’s been a while since I’ve commented, but I still follow you and all the great things you and Ro are doing. I came across this poem today and thought of the two of you. Sending you peaceful vibes.

    i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
    my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
    i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
    by only me is your doing,my darling)
     
    i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
    no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
    and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
    and whatever a sun will always sing is you
     
    here is the deepest secret nobody knows
    (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
    and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
    higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
    and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
     
    i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
     
    – e. e. cummings ~

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