Day: January 3, 2011

Ro rocked through surgery!!!!!!!

Maureen just came down to tell us that Dr. L is closing up
shop and everything went beautifully. We don’t know a whole bunch
at this point, but all we need to know is he is o.k. We will find
out soon if they had to remove a kidney or anything like that.
Knock on wood that they did not. Thank you all for your prayers,
they are working and have been working for us since day one!!! I
will update you more after we talk to Dr. LaQuaglia and after we
get R transported over to where he needs to be. All that matters is
that the surgery is almost over and our baby is fine!!!

Update two…. still kind of generic

Maureen, the lady who is assigned to everyone just came in. She is actually able to go into the room to check on Ronan and Dr. L. She said he is making progress, Ro is doing fine, but there is still a lot of work to do. She talked about Dr. LaQuaglia and how meticulous and tedious he is. He’s not in there screwing around; he is focused and he is the best. Maureen has been doing her best to keep us as updated as possible, thank god. I am crawling out of my skin. I asked her if she thought Dr. LaQuaglia would let me see the tumor. She said, it depends on his mood. He may not want me to, because he thinks it will forever be seen as something negative to me. I don’t care about that…. I just want to see it for real solid proof that it is out of my baby. Also, I am curious as to what it looks like. I would tell you all what I would really like to do to it, but that would involve waaaaaay to many swear words.

So, I will leave you with this; FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKING CANCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also, I am listening to Pandora right now and Christina Aguilera’s song Fighter is on. How fitting.

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn’t trust
‘Cause your bluff time is up
‘Cause I’ve had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
‘Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you’re wrong
‘Cause if it wasn’t for all that you tried to do
I wouldn’t know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

‘Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Oh, ohh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you’re going around
Playing, the victim now
But don’t, even begin
Feeling I’m the one to blame
‘Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won’t work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it’s over
‘Cause if it wasn’t for all of your torture
I wouldn’t know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

‘Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Update One…. kind of a generic one

One of the nurses that comes out into the waiting room to give everyone updates, came to see us. She said Ronan went to sleep beautifully, they have started, and he is going great. I think she saw what a wreck I was so she put us back in a private room to wait.

I just listened to my 15 voicemails from today and you all made me cry…. Niki, Charisma, Lindsey, Gay, Stacy, Marisa, Susie…. I love you all so much. All of your words are were beautiful. I am so thankful for my dear friends and all the strength you all have. Also, my text messaging, blog, and FB friends…. thank you for letting us know you are here with us today. We know you are, Ronan knows you are, and we think of you ALL as angels surrounding him. I never knew so much love existed in the world. Thank you all for showing it to me.

Here’s to Ronan and our Surgeon of the Angels

I carried Ronan all the way to Sloan this morning. He held on to me tightly and we talked all about what was going to go on today and how he has an angel for a doctor who is going to get the tumor out of his tummy. He seemed excited and I told him how strong and brave he was, and how he was going to grow up to be a healthy amazing boy, and I would always be by his side. He listened and smiled a lot. And then asked about going to Atlantis after all of this is said and done. It’s his make a wish dream that he wants to come true. I promised him we would take him there and swim with the dolphins after he gets his broviac out. That is going to be the best day ever.

Here we go. Ronan is back in surgery. It took 3 doses of the “sleepy meds” to even calm him down. Woody’s exact words to me were, “How do you like how they had to give him 3 doses of that medicine… he’s a little fucker, just like you.” LMAO. Oh, he makes me laugh at the worst possible times in my life. They let me put on scrubs and carry him to the operating room and place him on the table. He was laughing at how funny I looked in my “bunny suit.” He was pretty out of it, but still thought I was funny. I hated leaving him and I wish I could stay by his side the entire time. Leaving him there was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I left him, tears pouring down my cheeks and Woody was waiting for me on the other side. Somehow, we made it down to the floor where we are supposed to wait. I left Woody and made a couple of phone calls and ended up locking myself in a bathroom to call Auntie Karen. She talked to me and let me cry to her. She was my saving grace; as always.

So now we wait. They said they would come and update us every hour or so… I will keep you posted. Lots of prayers and love today. We are so lucky to have the best doctor in the world operating on our child. After this is all done, I am going to give that man the biggest hug in the world.

P.S. Happy Birthday, Wesley Tarbell. We love you little man and just know it is a good sign that Ronan is having his surgery on your birthday. Miss you!!!!!!