Sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast

I feel a little like Alice in Wonderland. A little lost, scared, curious, brave, hopeful, determined, a champion, a dreamer and strong. A little like the Mad Hatter too. Crazy, funny, smart, and zany. And the White Queen, confident, gracious, and sassy. I relate to so many of these characters in this movie. I feel like I am Alice, living a crazy dream, and I just can’t wake up. I haven’t cried in a few days, which is rare. I hope all of these drugs are not numbing me too much. I want to feel things… but I also don’t want to feel too much or else I won’t be able to function. These past few days I have been looking at Ronan and just feeling happy and extremely lucky to be able to spend so much time with him. His spirits have been great. He is so feisty and has been cracking me up. Last night, Liam and Quinn were in the shower and Ronan kept running in there and throwing things on them. I was trying to get him to stop but he of course was not listening. I did my pretend Woody call, which is sometimes what I do when Woody is not here, and sometimes it works and Ronan stops the naughty things he is doing. Last night when all that was happening, I yelled out, “Woooooody!” Ronan looked me dead in the eye and goes, “Woody’s not here.” I died laughing. Liam and Quinn were hysterical with laughter. It was so funny and smart of him. He has so much mischief and fire inside of him. It keeps me on my toes and I love every second of it. He is so strong and brave. He is my hero.

So, since we won’t be in the hospital for Thanksgiving, we will be spending it with our dear friends, The Kotaliks and Mimi and Papa. It is going to be the best Thanksgiving ever. We have so many things to be thankful for this year. Just to be able to be together as a family is a huge blessing. We will hopefully start his chemo on Monday. Woody is devastated that we have had a little set back but Ronan’s body needs to fully recover from the last round to start this next round. I have faith that everything happens for a reason and it will all work out. It just has to; we have come too far with all of this.

My mom and Jim will be coming out on the 1st of December for a visit. My mom is so nervous because of the way I flipped out on her the last time she was here. I keep reassuring her that I will be fine this time…. I’m on medication for crying out loud and I know that is helping. We are surprising the boys’ and not telling them that Papa Jim is coming too. They will be so thrilled. It will be nice to have both my mom and Jim here. I have a very special bond with my step-dad… I love him to pieces and feel so lucky that my mom married him when I was 13. He is the greatest man.

That’s all for tonight. Looking forward to a very peaceful weekend with some very special friends coming into town for a visit on Saturday. I am so excited about that. It has been much too long since I have seen this dear friend of mine. Planning on a fun Saturday night and taking her and a few other girls to Chelsea’s Kitchen for dinner. It is going to be a very special evening to say the least.

Happy Thanksgiving to you all tomorrow if I don’t get to check in. I am thankful, always, everyday for all of the blessings in my life. Love to you all, my friends.


I love my friends!!! Spread the word!!

Hey all you KHS alumni! We are planning a very casual mini-reunion for ALL classes on Sunday, December 26th, 2010. If you’re in town for the holidays, come to the Silver Star in Longview around 7pm where we’ll all get together to catch up with old classmates and have a good time! See you there!
Blue and Gold will always run deep though our veins and there’s no doubt that when one of our own has fallen we all would do anything to help her back up. Our fellow Hilander, Maya Thompson class of ’96, found out this past August that her 3 year-old son Ronan, has stage IV Neuroblastoma; a rare and very serious cancer. (If you want the s*it scared out of you, Google it). He has already had one surgery to remove a tumor behind his left eye and will be starting his 5th round of chemotherapy very soon. Next month, he will fly to New York to have another surgery to remove the massive tumor in his abdomen and will stay in NY for about a month while he recovers. Obviously all of this accrues ridiculous medical bills for the family even though they have insurance. We thought while we are all having fun during our little reunion it might be nice to help out the Thompson family. We are asking a suggested $5 donation from each person, which will all be donated to The Ronan Thompson Foundation to help the family out with his medical bills and once he beats this, they will continue to raise money in Ronan’s honor to donate to hospitals, cancer research, and childhood cancer awareness. We will also be selling “F*ck you cancer” and “Our little hero” bracelets for $5 each and “Rockstar Ronan” T-shirts for $20; all of the proceeds go to Ronan’s foundation. We hope you can come out to reminisce with all of your fellow classmates and donate to the Thompson family if you are able to. “To be with us, you have to be good. To stay with us, you have to be strong. To beat us, you have to be kidding. We Are Kelso.”

A change of plans

Ronan’s counts are not high enough to start chemo this week. What does this mean?? It means a lot… his surgery date will now have to be changed, as well as our flight out to New York. Trying not to stress too much… everything happens for a reason, right?? We will now get to spend Thanksgiving together as a family at our dear friends’, The Kotaliks. We will go back into the clinic on Monday to have his levels checked again. They have to be up…. we need to get his chemo started as soon as possible. I am going to relax and try to stay calm about this. Things will work out. I am going to take this as a very good sign that we were meant to all be together on Thanksgiving and I am very thankful for that alone.

On a good note, Ronan has gained 2 pounds this week! That is huge for such a little guy:) Mama has been feeding him well!!

Have a beautiful and blessed turkey day!! xoxo

P.S. I heart Tina Fey and this made me laugh.