No regrets
Today, I spoke with a women named Joy. A friend of mine, Chris, gave me her number. I called her and we had a good talk for about a half an hour. She was full of such light, energy, and positivity. I told her a bit about Ronan and what we are going through. She immediately told me she would put him at the very top of her prayer list and even though she doesn’t go on the internet much, she was going to so she could read about his story. She felt our strength instantly and told me she could feel all of the angels surrounding Ronan. She also told me she really felt like Ronan was going to be the miracle child to come out of this. I believe her, even though I don’t even know her. She seemed to be feeling all of the same things that I feel about my baby and seemed to be very in tune with me. I felt cleansed and renewed after talking to her. My dad would be proud of me. He has always been very in tune with the universe and the world surrounding us. Any guidance I can get though this is going to help me. Whether it be church, a strong feeling, a wish on a star, a prayer, a horoscope…. I am going to embrace ALL OF IT. I am putting my faith in everything and anything I can. Who am I to discriminate?? Or judge?? That’s never been me. I am an open book and I am going to soak in every ounce of anything I can get; like a sponge. I am going to take a leap of faith at ANYTHING that comes my way. I have to know in my heart of all hearts, that I am doing anything and everything to save my child. I stopped listening to the doctors a long time ago. Their numbers and statistics mean nothing to me because they do not know the Ronan that I know. He is a part of my mind, body, and soul. His journey is not stopping here; it is just beginning.