So we met with the doctor last night and while I was holding Woody’s hand I was trying to focus on all the information being thrown our way. My mind kept wandering back to Woody and I couldn’t even look at the doctor anymore, it was Woody’s face that I was staring at. I kept thinking, why him? How in the world could this happen to him? And I’m not taking about Ronan… I’m talking about my Woo. The most amazing man put on this planet and I’m not exaggerating. Anybody that knows my husband, knows how unbelievably rare and special he is. I am so pissed at myself that this has to happen to him. I know it’s not my fault and it’s nothing I did but i am still so mad and sad. My heart aches for him every second of the day. He is the last person that deserves this kind of pain. My dearest friend, Trish, always tells me he is one in a billion. My mom wants to clone him. I met this man when I was 21 and have never doubted in my mind that he was my other half. He is 100% too good to be true; but proves himself everyday to me. So, is this what our fate was meant to be all along? To face something so horrendous together because no matter what, we will survive. Together?Because we are strong enough as a team that we can beat this? I know one of Woody’s fears is that this is going to rip us apart. Not possible. No matter what, we are going to come out of this stronger. I know that for a FACT.
August 17, 2010
The days are so blurry I can’t even keep track anymore. So much has happened today, but I am only going to talk about the love I saw between 3 little boys. The twins came to visit!! We finally decided that it was ok because Ronan is looking much better. I missed the reunion because Wood and I were in talking with the doctor. From what Mimi Kay says, Ronan lit up like she’s never seen before. The 3 boys were so happy to be together you would have thought they were at Disneyland, not in a hospital.
It broke my heart when they had to leave. As they were saying goodbye, Ronan got so sad. I looked down and saw him trying to be so brave and tough, but his little lip started to quiver as he fought back the tears. Poor baby.
I could go on and on but my eyes are blurry and I am exhausted. Today was good for my Ronan’s spirit and soul. I physically felt the love that surrounds us and I know, no matter what, we are going to make it through this. xoxo
Love to all of our beautiful angels out there. Nighty night.