Don’t mess with the Ronan

Off with his hair! My sweet girl who cuts and colors my hair, the amazing Katrina, came and shaved Ronan’s today. He looks like a badass. I didn’t cry. Even though I wanted to. Liam and Quinn watched…. not so sure they really wanted to but Ronan got really teary eyed when they said they were leaving before he cut it. Ronan was really wanting his brothers around today. I can tell he is missing them a lot. I always knew Ronan was the most gorgeous boy put on this planet. This just proves it. He looks BEAUTIFUL. His blue eyes look a hundred times bigger and the shape of his head is absolutely perfect. He sat so brave while we shaved it off. After, he kept wanting to touch it and was asking about the scar on his head. I keep telling him it’s his tough guy scar. He keeps saying he has an army guys haircut. So cute. His spirits are great…. but his ANC is still at 0. Hoping they’ll come up by tomorrow.

I think I am going to sleep at home tonight and have Woody sleep here. I can tell my body is trying to get sick and wanting to shut down. I’m sure it’s due to lack of sleep, food, and the freezingness of this hospital. Brrrrr! Why do they keep is so icy cold here?? A good nights sleep is what I need to fight this off. I can’t be sick around Ronan. That would not be good for either of us. He needs his mama and I need him.

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    3 a.m. speech writing with my bestie Charles Bukowski. He's a good friend to have during nights like this when all I want to do is vomit as I try to prepare for a speech I have to give on May 9th which is the 4 year anniversary of when Ronan died. Honored to have been nominated for such an amazing award, but the timing of the awards ceremony is totally fucked up, award ceremony gods. It will be a miracle if I can get up on that stage and pull this off. #ronan #fucancer #nofilternecessary #vomiteverywhere #may9thcansuckit #bukowskiismyspiritanimal #rebelwithacause #cancerisawhore My favorite co-sleepers. #ronan #fucancer #poppyandteddy #bestiesforlife #assholeteddy #goldendoodle #nightynightlovers Date night. @brimelone @quinn.thompson24 #ronan #fucancer #myloves #family #sissytime #sundays #fuzzylove

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